I'm suddenly overwhelmed with emotions
I never thought I would feel.

Jac gave me 2 missed calls,
followed by a message that read:
'im feeling very down, not coz of u
but coz of what alvina said. anyway
enjoy ur stuff.'

I wondered what happened,
so I called her back and then
she didn't pick up my calls at all.
Worried, called her again,
then she missed call me and then
I got back to her again.

Finally, when I got to her,
she said she fell asleep on her
chair.
I can understand that she's tired
and restless, so I didn't blame her.

Then I asked her about Alvina.
I didn't expect that Alvina would
affect her so much.
OH well, she's her friend.
How on earth can a girl who's not exactly
close to you and only knew you for less
than a month affect your mood?
Just coz she threw some smacking hard reality
shocks at you?
And you didn't even have any form of rebuttal?
You said what she said was true and it made sense,
but I could never understand how I try so hard
to make you see how much you need to be strong,
but yet failed, coz in the end, I'll just have
a whole load of scoldings from you.

I didn't even know,
you were quite close to her during the
first week,
I didn't know and expect you peeps to
communicate on messenger as often.
I didn't even know everytime you pass
by her window, you'd say hi and talk to
her.
She can be quite a good friend,
from the way you speak about her.
But still, I'm glad she got you
out of the closet once in awhile
and introduce friends to you.
If I meet her one day,
I'll thank her.

Anyway, at least you have a good friend there.

On a lighter note,
it's Belle's birthday!
Haha, my wonderful dog.
7 years old already.
Which means 49 for a human.
Hmm, almost as old as my parents.
LOL.
Don't be so temperemental okay?
I love you LOADS LOADS!

- I'm tired,
I'm worn out,
I can't catch up anymore,
would you piggy back me?
I just wanna be carried by you,
I would love that feeling all
over again.
I miss you. (

* What upsets me most is no matter what I do, I'm never good enough for you.