Happy Deepavali to all!
I hope you peeps enjoyed deepavali,
especially cow and mel.
We may not have been contacting anymore,
but that doesn't mean that I've forgotten
any of you.
I'm really sorry to have been such a liar
and a disappointment to you peeps.
What I do hope is that you peeps would
give me a chance to make up for all my
mistakes. Thank you. =)

Today being a public holiday,
it ain't special in a sense that there was
nothing to look forward to.
Festivities used to have such wondrous impacts
in my life, but since this year,
it has been completely ruined.
I realised i had no one to call,
to talk to,
to go out with, coz I was always restricted.
Either by my parents or Jac, for that matter
of fact.
I really hate the life that I've been leading now,
I just want everything to be the same again,
even if it meant not having Jac back in my
life again.
I'm really sorry to have said these.
But I know it's true.

I am home the whole day.
Woke up at 12pm,
watched tv, like finally.
get to catch up on some entertainment stuffs,
which was good for me, coz I seldom have the
chance to anymore.
Watching those celebrities living such
luxurious lives, I wished their fortune
can be donated to charity as well.

Mum and dad were as usual,
the ones who had nothing better to do and try to control my life.
Honestly, if I had the money,
I'll never come back home again.
I'll run far away together with someone
who loves me as much as I love her.
Then it'll just be the both of us.
I hate being at home and what's worse,
I hate being controlled.

Hopefully Jac's class went smoothly
and that she'd be able to catch up.
Don't feel like blogging already.
I'm tired.

- I miss you so much,
when you were around,
I always had answers,
coz you always assured me everything
was going to be okay.
I loved your presence,
I love being with you,
could you ever look at me the same
way again? (

* i'm sick and tired of this life, take me away please.