I haven't had time to blog about yesterday's happenings.
Shocking but true.
Jac took a flight back to Singapore,
to just stay for 10 hours before leaving
for Birmingham again.

Have honestly no idea why she did that,
but I guess she has her reasons.
It could be coz of our constant quarrels,
me ignoring her for good,
doing small lil actions
and causing her to revert back to her
depression days.
It could also be she just wanted to see me,
coz she missed me so much.
It could also be she was home-sick
and she missed home so very much.
Whatever the reasons, I'm sure the above
mentioned were all valid.

She called me at 7plus in the morning yesterday
to talk to me coz she was stopping over
to switch planes. I was like so damn sleepy.
I couldn't exactly remember what she was talking about.
Then I woke up fully at 10.05am to get ready
and prepare to fetch her from the airport.

I was suppose to be early, but bus 14 and the train
just had to delay my time and resulted in me being
late. That's frustrating.
Jac called to say she touched ground already
and I was like, that's fast. LOL.
Her phone was dying on her so she said to meet
me at the mrt station.
And I diligently waited. Was wondering where she came from.
There were two exits and I was confused.
Waited for quite awhile before going over
to the next exit, when I saw someone that looked
like her from afar. I assumed it was her,
but decided to shrug it off coz of the walking pattern.

When she called me using a payphone,
she said she was waiting for me downstairs and I was
like I'm already here but I couldn't see you.
Decided to take my shot at asking if she was
wearing what that person was wearing and it
proved correct. I was like, YES! I was right.
So I said okay, I know already. I'll go up
and find you. Guess she didn't hear it,
so she went down the escalator whereas I went up.
OH my, that's really annoying.
Could never get to each other.
I was laughing my ass off coz it was so lame.
But she was fed-up, could see from her facial
expression. "/

When I finally met her face to face,
she looked angry yet happy.
She took me and held me in her arms
and hugged me real tight, I could suffocate
and I hugged her back too.
Could feel the strong sense of miss in her
hug.
She looked so tired and she lost weight
AGAIN.
This person just doesn't eat.
Sigh.

She bought a standard ticket to Tampines.
Haha, it was an indication that she wanted
to go for the 12.30pm mass with me at
Holy Trinity.
Such a sweetie.
Was talking alot to her and catching up
on those times we've been apart.
Then we came to serious matters about
settling this relationship of ours.
IT was disastrous,
we sort of had a lil tiff.
We reached Tampines and I just walked
out of the train, feeling like crap.
I was angry, coz I couldn't understand
why she is so possessive and couldn't
she see the unhappiness in me?
I shrugged it off and turned my back,
only to find out that she was left in the train.
I was quite upset with myself for being so mean

So I sat there and waited for her.
She came back and I asked what happened?
She said she was angry with me therefore she
didn't want to alight, I could almost kill her.
Made me feel guilty about that. TSK.
So we headed down to Holy Trinity.
Attended mass, her grandma kept calling.
Faints, 16 missed calls after that.
IT runs in the family I suppose,
but Jac's still the best at this.

Jac got lectured by her grandma and
her grandad. It was quite bad, but
I could sense the disappointment in
them as to why Jac turned out this way.
Honestly I have no idea.
I tried talking to Jac to get her to
see the light, but unfortunately it
didn't work.
Her grandparents talked to me about her
and I felt sad for them, but I felt even
more sad for Jac.
Coz she has no idea what she's doing.
But I told myself I'll try my very best
to help her, after all we've known each
other for so long and it's partly my
fault she turned out this way.

Went for St.Gerard's blessing with my family.
I was late, but luckily was still in time
to receive blessings and have my petitions
heard as well.
I got an additional medal for Jac,
I wanted her to have it, so that St Gerard
could protect her and keep her safe,
giving her the strength she needs to
study and to conquere her instability.
After that, I went off and my family went for
mass. Met Jac back at the bus-stop.

She said she didn't wanna go back,
I was so shocked.
I told her she had to.
No matter what.
She was quarrelling with Chris and Jiefu
on our way to Novena Square.
It got really irritating,
coz she pissed me off by smoking
and wanting to find trouble with everyone
even though I wasn't contacting them anymore.
She couldn't trust me and I was infuriated.
Was practically fuming bad and I couldn't
bother much about her.
She was only willing to put down the phone,
when Jiefu said she'd inform Jac immediately
if she found out that I was with Chris.
Okay, fine. Reasonable.

After that, everything simmered down.
Jac began feeling so much better,
she was talking to me non-stop,
smooching me and getting all cheeky.
Told me she wanted the best for me,
that she didn't mind spending money
on me just as long as I was happy.
I was like, okay.
We went to Monsoon coz she wanted to
cut her hair, AGAIN.
She was afraid that I was bored,
so she suggested manicure for me.
Everything was express service coz
we had very little time left already.
So I agreed, although I didn't want to
waste her money. Like honestly.

IT was fun and her hair looked
SO SO much better than all her other
previous haircuts.
She looked more suave.
And I like my pretty red nails.
Emily was good man. =)
Her hairstylist had no idea how
to address Jac, brother or sister,
so I said preferably brother. LOL.
Hilarious okay!

Off we zoomed in her car to Great World City,
to pass Sarah her vcd that I owed since a year ago!
Haha, was good to see her again.
And I found out that she was a Catholic too!
WHEE!
Jac had a craving for Sanma, so did I.
Haha, seems like there's our small
lil hangout, just the two of us.
Sounds quite sweet right?
When we got there, it was so freaking crowded.
I almost died, suggested eating somewhere else,
but Jac wanted Sanma so bad, she said we could
grab a mini bite first then head back there again
after we went to shop for the earpiece for my hp.

My hp was completely spoilt.
The sound system is horrible.
Jac was complaining.
Had to thank her for getting me the earpiece.
It was 40 plus dollars, so expensive!
Argh...unecessary money wasted yet again.

We went back to Sanma haven and we finally
got a place to sit and order our food.
We both ordered 2 sets of fresh Sanma and
a bowl of Odeon with a platter of tuna sashimi.
Haha, we ate till we were too tired,
kept chewing, moreoever Jac didn't sleep for
2 whole days and I didn't have enough sleep too.
We became fans of water, like EVIAN. (heh)

Went cold storage to get her stuffs.
A pack of trple A batteries and
4 SMALL PACKS OF PANTILINERS.
Haha, so many, I was so embarassed
to bring it to the counter.
Then there was this woman who switched
her Taka voucher for cash with Jac.
Hmmm...

We went back home.
Jac took a bath,
prepared herself and all.
Waited for unlce to send her off
to the airport.
Her Qantas flight got delayed,
so we sat down and have a drink together.
I knew her grandma and uncle never gave up
on her, just anger talks.
Hah. Made me so worried, actually,
I didn't have to in the first place.

We sent her off,
they sent me back to Bedok inter,
got Macs for dad and back home.

Talked to Jac for awhile before she
boarded her plane.
And off to bathing and sleeping!

I cried before sleeping yesterday,
I wonder why.

- It didn't take long for me
to know how much you've given
up on me, it's sad to see that
look in your eyes.
Everything may seem fine now,
but I know things will never be the
same again.
I wish to tell you I miss you very much.
I wish to tell you I wanna be in your arms.
I wish to tell you sorry for breaking your heart,
but what I wish the most is for you to love me
again, just like before. (

* Heart-wrenching moment, stab me.