Jac hurt me yet once again.
I'm actually very very upset with her,
I honestly do not know why I'm still with her.

Her main purpose in this relationship,
is not to love me,
but to torture me,
possess me,
strangle me,
leaving me with no space to breathe
and MOST importantly,
to torture me.

She claims she loves me,
then she goes crazy and suicidal
and then she demands things from me and
threatens me.

I'm honestly sick of this kind of life
and I'm really tired of her.
She's too much to handle.
She wears me out emotionally
ALL THE TIME.

What's worse,
she made me CRY in front of
the webcam for her.
She said those mean and nonsensical stuffs.
She compares me with Jessie and Berenice.

Jessie is violent like mad, chasing her with a knife.
Berenice whacks her up till her entire face is swollen.
I just merely said sacarstic words to her.
I never hit her,
I never abandoned her.
I did all I can.
Now I'm risking my 3 years for her,
but she does not know a single thing.

I love her.
But, I will not settle down with her.
NEVER.
Not anymore.
So sorry, I've seen through her.

I've given up on her a LONG time ago.

She broke my heart too many times.
Sigh.

* Torn, battered, lost and left on the road to die.