TUESDAY

I cann't really recall what happened.
But I was like really good today.
For my target, I've reached the highest today.
With 17 cards sold! =)

Haha, fate?
That's Chris code number.
Hmmm . .fate's telling me something?

I was really elated and all coz it really
felt good doing well and above the rest for once.
Probably due to certain circumstances,
I got the motivation to finish up my work well.

I was late for tuition,
but it got cancelled in the end coz
I was SUPER late.
All coz of work commitments.
All the batch and masterlists are killing me.
LOL.

To: J

I know you probably hate me now.
But seriously, I never expected you
to be so harsh after our break-up.
You seem to be a changed person.
Like totally.
I don't even know who you are anymore.
Your attitude,your behaviour, your words.
They KILL.
I was seriously very upset with the way you spoke.
How could you blame me for nothing?
Accusing me of commenting on the design and all?
What the hell was wrong with you?
I ain't your punching bag okay?
I love you but yet you make my love seem to
be a hindrance, a disgust to you.
I'm totally disappointed with you.
No amount of words or healing can help now.
Just go away.
I don't EVER want to see you again.

* I'm speechless, I know now, I'm just a worthless
piece of trash to you.

Today was okay,
cannot really recall much.
Just that I keep having relapses
of emtional breakdowns,
if this continue,
you might find me in your nearest friendly
nieghbourhood hotel,
IMH.
Do visit me yea?
I HATe loneliness.

Record of 15 cards sold.
I'm getting better.
Like I said, it must have been
some kind of force.
And that force comes from HIM.

I don't blame him for anything,
but I seriously do not wanna get near him again.
He's never loved me and he never will.
Mine's just all false hope.

I rather not get into a relationship with
him in the first place.
Silly me, thinking that I would be able to
help him overcome his past.

Tuition today was good.
Managed to go through all the stuffs with
my tutee.
She's really nice and understanding,
she's able to adjust to my schedules. =)

Life's pretty monotonous now.
Nothing much that I would wish to update.

There's no more purpose in anything now.

Punish me.

Do I deserve this?
I'm posting this question to every single
one out there.
ANSWER ME!

* If revenge was what you were out for,
you accomplished it. With a PERFECT score.