It's all over.
It's all done with.
We've parted.

My heart hurts like MAD.
I'm going insane.

Someone, please please give me an answer.
Why?
Am I not worth being loved?
Why can't anyone give me a chance to love?
Why am I deprived of happiness?

The whole world seems to be against me now.
I'm fighting a lifeless battle.
I'm alone.
Damn it, I'm alone.

I'm tired, I really am.
I need to just get out.
Go somewhere,
leave the real world that has all
harsh realities smacking right at my face.

Yeah, how much can you feel for
someone whom you know for only 2 months?

It sounds atrocious.
But I love him.
I didn't realise this feeling till he told me
to move on yesterday.
I do, I did and I still am loving him.
But there's no turning back.

The path has been decided.
I just have to do what I can.

Then again, I may not be the perfect girlfriend,
or a good person or is it coz
of my heart condition?

I'm beginning to doubt myself.
I don't have the confidence anymore.

I don't want love in my life anymore.
Just stay away from me.
I've had enough of the promises,
all the words,
it keeps playing back in my mind.

I'm breaking down.
Please, save me pain.
Just get me out of love.
I don't want to be with love anymore.

This is official.
I'm breaking up with love now.

I cry till my eyes hurt,
cry till my heart hurts (physically).

I just need some time to myself.
I'm taking this opportunity to do things I've never done before.

I just need a breather.

My lovely peeps out there,
I know you peeps care.
Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything drastic.
I just need some time to myself.
To sort out my emotions, mend my pieces.
I won't be contacting any of you just yet.
(Please don't call my house)
I just wanna be alone for awhile.
I hope you people understand.
Thank you all of you.
I Love you.
For the times when I needed a shoulder to cry on,
everyone of you were there.
I'll never forget your love and care,
I'll come back.
That's for sure.
I'm not sure how long I'll take.
But you'll see the stronger me again.
Ja will be back.
Sorry.

* I was murdered on 25 March 2007 4.50a.m