It isn't one of the good days of the week.
Imagine having so many problems all happening,
in one single day.

Sometimes you dread it,
sometimes you wanna prevent,
but you still cannot avoid it.

Not when the people who are suffering
are the ones you love and care so much about.

Early in the morning when I woke up,
I found that my hp was off.
Rightfully, it must have been that my hp ran out of battery,
but I remembered vividly that it still had 2 small bars
of battery left before I went to sleep,
I got curious,
but soon I found out why.
My wonderful sister actually used my phone to call her gf.
As usual, they were having a tiff and boy,
was I lucky not to hear them quarrel.

I was practically sleeping like a dead log.
Was super tired.
When I switched on my hp,
I found that i had a missed call and 2 messages unread.
To my horror,
my LIBIDOS are practically getting angry with each other.
Goodness, I was shocked.
Didn't know the head and tail of the story
and was caught with bits and pieces of information.

I couldn't do much,
had to go for mass,
but with a heavy heart.
Mum was ranting and saying that my sis and I
don't care about her.
Sometimes I feel she's really jealous of my friends,
behaves like a kid seeking attention
and critises people like she's perfect.
After mass, I had a missed call and 5 messages.
I almost died.

Told my mum and dad I was going to meet cathy at vivo.
They were complaining and all.
Told them about cow's prob as well.
They gave all sorts of reasons and asked me not to interfere.
I'm sorry, when it concerns my friends, there's no way
I'm leaving the matter as it is.
The LIBIDOS problems are my problems.
Mess with anyone of them and I'll make sure
the people put there pay double the price.

Cabbed down to vivo.
Met up with cathy.
She was reading a book and poor girl,
had to really tolerate and not go to the toilet,
if not the place would be taken up.
Sweet as she was, she got me caramel frappucino.
Yummy, my favourite.
Got the entire story from her like finally!
I didn't feel relieved, but at least I knew what was
going on. Hate to be left out on all these issues.

Cathy was telling me about cow,
mel, the libs and all.
Looking at her anxious and devastated face,
my heart goes out to her.
Knowing that she has been the pillar of our group,
I know we all have surpassed her.
Poor Triplet, broke down and cried buckets.
Plus the song, 'Home' by Michael Buble,
aggravated everything.
Cathy looks strong but deep down inside,
she's weak as any of us.
I talked to her, reasoned out with her,
let her see that it's not that we've forsaken
or took her love and care for granted,
sometimes it's just too much for us to take.
And I knew immediately that she understood.
(Reading from her blog) =)

After which, I cabbed down to silly boy's place,
my poor silly boy was sick.
That silly boy of mine,
was just so worried about him.
Making me think about him and if he was alrite.
I went down to bring him to the docs.
Luckily, a clinic was opened.

He went home and got his religious stuffs,
before going over to Aljunied.
Accompanied him and all.
But when we reached the Propogation Centre,
it was closed.
Geez, I felt bad.
guess I walked too slow.

Later we went back to Bedok to have dinner
at the hawker centre near the interchange.
I had mutton soup with rice.
(It's been long . real long . )
HE was like a pig!
LOL.
He ate a plate of duck rice + a whole egg,
6 pieces of chwee kueh
& bo bo cha cha.
My goodness, imagine that kinda appetite from
a sick person.
WOW! He broke my record.
( I ought to be ashamed of myself. LOL. )

Bought lime juice for my mum, dad
and myself.
Haha, its been so long since I last drank it.
Beautiful, thirst quencher. =)

Took 17 back home.
So here I am now.
Pondering over my LIBIDOS.
Seriously, we need to TALK.

( Triplet )
Babe, I know you've been thru alot of shit
be it from family, friends, the LIBS or your boss.
It's not easy to be strong when you can no longer
contain the weakness in you anymore.
Don't hold back babe, I'm here for you.
The Libidos are here for you.
Remember that we love and care about you.
We come from different lives but the reason
why we're together is because we believe in
true, pure and infinite friendship.
The foundation of the Libidos as you know,
is the love and effort we put in maintaining it.
Don't cry coz we hurt each other,
but rather smile coz we're still together. =)
It's not your fault that things are like that now,
just know that you don't always have to be the strong one,
there's someone who's willing to let you lean on,
that's me. =)

( Lesbie )
Babe, you are the group's most lovely, lively
and entertaining girl. Keep that vitality in you.
I know you're going thru all this and it's simply unfair.
I really hate to see you like that,
but there's nothing I can do and I feel really helpless.
Your pain, your tears, your screams, your emptiness,
all these above that you're feeling,
I'm feeling it a hundred times more.
I just pray and wish that no matter what happens,
you'll think of the Libidos, because we're your strength.
Your pillar, your comfort, your embrace.
Never ever think that you're alone,
coz someone out there is crying with you as well.
Smile girl, don't bother about the people in your family.
They might never understand your pain,
but if you don't mind,
I'm willing to walk this journey with you
and share your pain and burdens,
but if you're happy,
you can keep all the happiness to yourself.
Be strong babe, I'm here. =)

( Red One )

Husband of mine, you've been a great person.
Someone whom I can talk to and communicate with.
Thank you for sharing your problems with me and
lending a listening ear when I need you.
I just hope that amidst all that's happening in your life now,
please do not neglect the people around you who care.
I know sometimes, care and concern from everyone is
a bit too overwhelming for you and you seriously do
not know what to do.
There are times when you mean well, when you don't wanna hurt
anyone but there are times too when words from you
can really damage a person's heart.
I'm not blaming you red one because I know you
just want people around you to be happy and not
to sacrifice too much for you.
I look at the same side you're looking,
too much of a good thing is bad,
but too little of a good thing could actually
make you feel like you're all alone.
The care and concern that cathy has for you and all of us
are purely natural. No harm intended. She just loves us
too much till we forgot what good intentions she has.
Cow doesn't mean to piss you off,
seriously, if you knew what she was going thru,
you would understand and feel her pain.
Cow cares for you just as much as I do.
But her expressions and actions are limited,
due to her family, her emotional problems
and the fact the she has to keep herself sane and trouble-free.
It's not easy at all to be putting on a mask,
just to make you think that she's alrite.
The Libidos are one. We'll not break away coz of this.
The reason why we are still together is simple.
We love each other and there's a part of our heart
that's already attached into this relationship.
Smile and stay happy, I want to meet the happy husband. =)

( Darlz )

You are one funny guy, who always never fails to
make me smile with all your crazy entics and hilarious jokes.
I'll never forget the times when you were there,
so willingly to listen to what I have to say.
You were there to back me up and comfort me.
I've never forgotten your kindness and love.
The LIBIDOS are facing a major problem now.
I really hope that we'll stick as one.
If you have any problems, voice it out.
Don't think that you can hide and disappear,
I know when you are having problems and I care.
Don't shun people away or act strong like you're never
hurt before. I want you to know that if ever you
need someone, I'll always be here. Hopefully,
you can find someone who loves you just as much as you
love her. In this way, I'm definitely more than happy. =)

( Lil Girl )

Babe, although you're not in Singapore and
you're currently studying in Australia,
I just want you to know that you're missed terribly by me.
The LIBIDOS are never complete without you.
I wished you could stay in Singapore and
share all our joys and pains.
The LIBIDOS are facing a crisis now.
But I hope everything will be okay.
If you ever need someone,
don't forget that in Singapore,
you have the LIBIDOS.
Think of us coz we all care.
We hope to see you soon and hopefully
go overseas together. Haha.
Have fun studying and take really good care of yourself.
God bless you. =)

After all that's been done and said.
I hope we'll stay together.
I'm here to keep us together.
Don't disappoint me.
Coz I really LOVE you peeps.

- My silly boy,
- you are just so adorable.
- I miss miss you. =)
- Thanks for helping me regain my strength
- to stand again.
- Remember to eat your medicine okay?
- BIG HUG offered to you if you take your medication regularly.


* I'm feeling pain in my heart, tell me if I'm still living?