Woke up like 7 in the morning.
Not the typical kind of timing that Jacinta
would actually wake up to.

I had an interview to attend you see.
Although I've already signed a contract for the position of
Customer Service Officer at the DBS Bank,
I'm still trying my luck at a job that I can relate to.

Went for the interview,
did some translation (from chinese to english),
Hah!
I know what you peeps must be thinking,
Yes, I must admit, my chinese language is horrendous.

Let me share a lil secret with you,
there was this time when I was working,
my colleague mentioned these chinese words to me,
" niu tou ma mian ", which actually means the
cow and the horse faced guards in hell.
(I know it's not auspicious or lucky to be saying this now.)
But I actually mistook it for something edible.
It's just so me right? Lol.
I KNOW.
So I said, 'hmm... niu tou ma mian, what kind of noodles is that?
How come I never eat it before? You know where they sell it?'
I could literally kill myself at that point of time.
Of course, my colleagues were all laughing till their faces turn red.

That's besides the point.
Lol.
After which I hung around in Tanjong Pagar,
waiting for the arrival of Wendy and Shi Hao.
We were meeting Charlie, Wen Jie and Ge Kee for lunch.
So we headed to Maxwell.
I had this comment from Shi Hao,
"Why you dress as if you are going clubbing later arh?"
I was like, 'My gosh! Serious? Faints.'
I really hope I get the job, I know I was really dressed down today.
Darn!

We found seats, soon after, Charlie and Wen Jie arrived.
It's been quite awhile, and the both of them don't look too good.
SK soon arrived and joined us.
We were just talking and bitching about people in the office
especially the so-called Assitant Director, Annabella!
She gets paid for basically nothing, she really does not fit the bill of a boss.
Oh well, enough of her.

We met Ge Kee after that,
had a personal talk with her.
Went up to my ex comapny and see if everyone was doing good.
Yes, they were somehow I guess.
There was this tension, stress, anger and probably strange aura in the air.
Didn't think much about it.

Headed to Parkway Parade with Wendy and Shi Hao later,
Wendy had an interview, so we waited till her interview was done,
before we all went out seperate ways.
I took a cab back with Shi Hao,
I was practically too tired to walk( talk about climbing the overhead bridge).

I immediately fell onto my bed and dozed off.
Strangely after which I had this msg from my precious red one.
His message was filled with uncertainty, a broken heart and despair.
I was seriously so worried about him.
It's as if I'm never going to see him again.
Frankly speaking, I don't know what to do.
I could feel as if the msg was a last msg to me,
I don't ever want to lose this friend of mine,
he's so damn important and caring towards me,
he's been the pillar when I needed him.
This time, I hope I could help him. . Really. .

To Mel,
I know life hasn't been fair to you.
People have taken you for granted,
your love was thrown aside,
your care and concern was questioned.
your strength and support had vanished,
you don't feel home anymore,
you're lost in this world that's brutally hurtful.
Your pain is something I can't understand,
But please remember that life's obstacles may be many,
there may be numerous setbacks,
but the reason why you're still living,
is because you still do see some love left within you.
That very love you feel,
is the joint affection that the LIBIDOS, your family and the
rest of the people who care create.
If you're ever going to fall time and time again,
you don't have to worry about not being able to pick yourself up,
because this time, I'll be the one to stretch my hand out to you.
If you still cannot face yourself, I'll carry you out of your misery.
Don't give up on yourself, coz I've never given up on you before. =)

This year, 2007.
Is it a good year for us?
Why has so many things happen all at once?
I pray that everyone around me is blessed with happiness.
Humans have memories, past and future to bother them,
but having people who care is a bonus.

- It's okay if you ignore me,
- it's okay if you don't feel the same way for me anymore.
- In any case, I'll just be glad to be someone whom you still can talk to.
- It's no use asking too much from you,
- it's only going to drive you away.
- I'd rather have you still by my side,
- than to demand you open the pressie I gave you.
- I wished you knew the love I have has never shifted its focus.

* A slight gap at the door, how far am I to heaven?