I'm getting into the mood for blogging again.
Strange but true.
Seems I'm going to try to blog daily if life permits.

It's a Sunday and the date for today, 14 January 2007.
Tomorrow it'll be dated 15 January 2007.
It's a significant date and day for me,
coz on that very day, that's when I started my relationship
with someone whom I never thought I'd love so much.

I can still vividly remember the place where we first met,
our first words to each other,
what my special one wore.
It's so memorable.

And as I walk down memory lane,
I can't believe how much I've grown from this relationship.
I've learnt to be independant,
I've learnt to love with a more open heart,
I've learnt to accept my special one for the way he is,
I've learnt the meaning of being blinded by love.
I've learnt to be a fool for love.
I've learnt to be stronger.
This relationship of mine has its many turns and twists,
but at the end of the day as I stand with him,
nothing compares to the love I have with him.

It's going to be the 4th anniversary for us tomorrow,
I'm suppose to be really happy and looking forward to it,
I'm suppose to be planning for the activities we're going to be doing,
but here I am blogging aimlessly.

I wish I could hear his voice,
I wish I could hug him real tight,
I wish I could tell him how much I miss him,
but our relationship is on the rocks,
someone tell me, what should I do?

What is this barrier that's hindering us from expressing how we
really feel towards each other?

I can't figure it out myself,
maybe the only reason that I can think of,
is that I've probably changed.

I've probably changed to become someone
he doesn't recognise anymore,
changed to become a girl who stands for her rights now,
not like the little girl he deeply fell in love with.

I've tried to understand him,
to be there for him,
to love and care for him,
but I think I gave too much.
So much so my love becomes an irritant,
a dissing factor.

Has my love turned to obsession?
Has my love faded with time?
Or is it because I finally knew what I want?

- Tell me baby,
- tell me I'm wrong,
- tell me I'm still the one for you,
- Would I still be the one you wanna walk down the aisle with?
- I know you don't like me blogging,
- but baby, I love you so much, I don't see myself anymore.

* Freedom or love? I chose love because without you and love, I'd rather die.