SUNDAY

I woke up knowing I was grounded
for that day. -bleahz-

I msged Cathy, Cow and Jer,
telling them that I couldn't make
it for today's outing.

My hp inbox was flooded
with msgs and calls. LOL.
I was so tired and all.

The funny thing was I woke up to msg
them and then fell back to sleep.

Was talking and explaining to them
about my situation.
In the end, we decided to ALL meet up
on the 18th of May.
Comulsory. No excuses. Lol.

Went for the usual mass,
after which we had lunch at the
coffeeshop nearby.

I wasn't in much of a mood,
I hardly spoke to my parents.

We took bus 59 from Tampines to Bishan.
We arrived at Bishan Junction 8.
Seriously, I never wanted to step into
that place ever again.
It brought about memories I had with J.
I remembered vividly that I accompanied
him to get his bedsheets from Aussino.
We held hands and we were really happy
at that point of time.
IT was like we're already planning for our future
ahead and behaving like a couple who's happily
married for 4 years.

We had a lil snack at KFC,
had cheese fries, coleslaw and a large pepsi.
We took bus 54 over to Nek Nek's place.
There again, I had memories.
Gosh, someone just save me.
Every part I went I'm reminded of J.

WAs conferencing with my precious LIBIDOS.
We were all talking about the problems
we had and the peope we're turning into.
I was turning to another LIZ,
as much as I hate being her, I was her.
I just really needed to work on myself.
Not to surpress everything I'm feeling within me.
Trust me, I tried to express.
But I don't know how anymore.
I wish I could cry out loud and hate him.
But I could do none of those.
In any case, after the talk,
I realise it's time to open up,
i'll definitely feel better.
Thanks to my LIBIDOS. =)

Had dinner and watched the chinese show
over channel 8.
Left Nek Nek's house and reached Bedok around 7plus.
Asked my mum to top up my EZ Link card for me.

In the later part of the night,
I got hell of a lecture from my dad again.
He asked why I couldn't top up the card by myself.
Saying all sorts of rubbish.
He made me sound like I'm the kind of perso
who would take advantage of people.
I really HATED him at that point of time.

And for ONCE EVER AGAIN,
I teared.
I questioned myself,
no matter how good I was or trying to be,
no one ever appreciates it.
I'm tired of constantly thinking about
people, looking out for them, caring and loving
them. I just wish to take a break and start
looking for someone who's willing to pamper,
love and care for me. I'm tired of motherly roles.
I just want to know that at the end of each day,
there's THIS someone who'll be there for me when
I need someone.

- The place I've been to today,
- brings back so much memories,
- how much more can I take?

* I wish we were like before.

MONDAY

Daisy's on MC today.
It's a YAY!
Haha, I'm not being mean but I
feel better when she's not around to chase for numbers.

Sales today were pretty alrite.
Jane went back home during lunch.
She took half day.
Poor woman, hope you're feeling better.
She had a major headache.
Rest well. =)

Had lunch with Ah Nai, Bangs and Yvonne.
My precious Princess Maureen went out with
her Fiance to have lunch.
Not to mention, she just got engaged on
the 29th April 2007.
I'm really happy for her.
Her Fiance is a doctor, I'm sure she'll
be happy with him coz he;s a really nice guy.
You better take good care of her I tell you,
if not her royal darling here will whack you. LOL.

After lunch, we continued with our calls,
by 6.15p.m,
I was barely hitting the target of making 60 calls,
therefore,
I stayed till around 8plus to finish my calls,
when Lionel told me to stop calling as
it was an eve of a Public Holiday.
Goodness, I only had 6 more calls
and he wouldn't even let me.
Daisy's sure going to kill me.
He better speak up for me. LOL.

Cross sold 11 cards.
Good attempt for a Monday.

Met up with Jerrie for dinner.
Haha, he called me at the right time.
Went to Bedok Interchange to have our
usuals.
Fried oysters! He had Fried Kway Teow,
whereas I had Herbal Chicken soup with rice.
We drank Sugar Cane with lemon.
Jerrie was such a sweetie,
he even knew my preference for sugar cane juice.
Thanks for the treat by the way. =)

Waited for his bus 25 with him,
we saw the Drag Queen of Bedok.
Shim's super tall can!
My gosh, so daring to reveal all shim's flesh.
I would think Shim make a good female.
Serious.

Was talking to red one over the phone.
Carolyn called and so I met up with her and Ken
for supper. LOL.
I only ate a lil.
I seriously was too full.
Was sent back home in her bf's car.

WAs home, talked to Chris and then
I dozed off.
Haha.
Was really worried about Chris,
only to find out her went drinking.
Alemak.

- I'm trying my best now.
- To get you off my mind.

* My determination, will it last?

I woke up at 2 plus p.m this afternoon.
Was super tired.
I have no idea why.
It seems I haven't been sleeping for centuries.

Daddy bought me Wanton mee with Ngoh Hiang.
I was watching Drumline and eating at the same time.
Nice movie, really cool.
With all the marching bands and their performances.

Mum and Dad are out.
Which is good,
that's why I can blog in peace.

Watched one disc of my Tokyo Juliet.
I love this show coz of it's ending song.
=)

Here I am now blogging,
i've got to wash up and prepare
to go over to my tutee's house to give tuition.
3 solid hours today.
Wish me luck! =)

Till then, love me.

- I wished there wasn't such a thing called emotion.
- Wished love never existed.
- in this way, I'll smile everyday.

* You came into my life and walkd out of it.
But did you know how much your absence has
affected me?