This is terrible,
I haven't been blogging promptly
these days.
Punch me.

TUESDAY

Tuition was cancelled,
therefore I decided to have dinner with
DD and Maureen.
As usual.
THEE couple. LOL.

Wanted to have steamboat and all,
but it was so freaking crowded,
have no idea why.
LOL.
Everyone has cravings like me.

We therefore decided to go Pasta Mania
as suggested by Maureen.
Wanted to go over to Bugis street to have
a look at those hats for the camp,
but I guess it was too late.
Oh well.
Will prob drop by on Friday.

Over to Pasta Mania.
Saw this really arty farty guy.
Woohoo!
He's so my type,
but abit unfriendly,
so who cares? LOL.

Had my usual Mushroooms and prawns,
wanted to have fafalle,
but I got Fusilli in the end.
*pouts*
The chef mixed up the orders.
Faints.
Just had to stick with it.
Maureen was talking about Gen Hong,
Gen Xian and all.
Guess she must have really missed him.
I could see it in her eyes.
I hope she'll be happy,
and really hoep that Gen Hong will be
back by her side. =)
Good luck my dear babe.

Was walking around and talking in the
middle of bugis junction near the fountain.
My precious libidos called,
we conferenced and they suggested going
to KL. Haha.
Yay! I was really excited even though
we were going to watch Man U play -bleahz
LOL.
Coz this would be my first trip out of Singapore
with my precious Libidos.
Love them.
I'm going to psycho my parents to let me go
no matter what. LOL. =)

Home after which.
As usual, alone.
DD sent Maureen over to the bus-stop.
But he was nice to msg me and tell me
to be careful on my way home.
Sometimes, I wonder when I would
have that privilege to be pampered once again.
-shrugs-

Home.
Showered.

* Wondering gets me nowhere.

WEDNESDAY

Tution today.
Haha.
I sold 16 cards.
Yay.
It's good, but I didn't like it when
Daisy just keeps checking on us.
We're giving you numbers, so don't get on
our backs all the time.
It's pretty irritating. LOL.

Tuition was great as usual.
Enjoyed eveyr minute with my tutees.
Chris was really sweet,
cabbing down all the way from home to
meet me at Tampines just for supper.
I missed him yesterday and today.
Coz I didn't hear from him.
It was just so weird, the feeling of worrying
and all came back.
Hmmm . . strange.

We had supper together,
but I accidentally talked about Jac,
which made him kinda upset.
I mean be it Jac, Chris or J'van,
every single one of them has made an impact
in my life and has contributed to where I am today.
I thank God for them,
but there is no comaprison coz I feel differently
towards each and every one of them.

Jac's my first love,
that pure, unconditional love.
Someone I will never forget and who
will always have the most special place in my heart.
He maybe my past, but I wouldn't wanna live my past
without him in it.

Chris's is my longest ex.
Had a relationship of 4 years.
Something i never imagined but yet
I'm forever grateful to have met him.
He has been the dearest angel in my life,
no matter how many times I cried for him,
I never blamed him because I know I loved him
very much, much more than he thinks.
The memories we share are something that no one
can ever take away.
He lives in my heart,
but at this spot where no one comes near.

J'van is my comfort.
He was there when I needed the love,
when I was down, he pulled me out of it.
He taught me the facts of life,
the truth about love and death.
I'm glad to have met him and even if memories
with him seemed limited, they're my treasures.
I love him, I really did.
But everything was too late, therefore our
journey ended.
It doesn't matter if he hates me now, but
I just want him to know that i was really happy
with him during that 2 months and the official
12 days.
I was a princess. =)

He sent me home.
It was like 4 years ago.
How nice it felt,
but then when I turn back,
it isn't the same anymore.

* Thinking about you, me or who?

Today has been great.
For starters, I was super early for work.
LOL.
Good good.
Daisy's on MC!
I knwo it's kinda mean,
but I feel so much better without her around,
no stress, no piercing eyes. -nods-

Lunch break.
Haha.
My gang and I were super mean.
We bought Nasi Lemak from Carrefour,
it was super expensive!
6 bucks for mine, I almost died.
Hehe.
There were 2 seperate stickers on
the packet, we didn't wanna pay that much,
therefore we ripped off one of the stickers.
Gee.
Instead of 6 bucks, I paid only $3.80.
Alrite, i know i shouldn't do that,
but I seriously didn't wanna pay that much
even though the food was well-known.
This will only happen once.
- for kids at home, please don't learn. -
LOL.

My calls were sucky.
Customers were bad.
Sales dropped.
I only sold 7 cards.
Save me.
I'm so gonna get scolding from Daisy tomorrow.

Marcus, DD and Allen are nice, funny
but quite corrupted guys.
=)

Ah Nai, Bangs, Shi Hui, Maureen and Jane
are just the people who make life so much
more better in DBS Bank.

LANG-KAO - better don't stare again,
if not I'll dig your eyes out. Haha.

Tuition today.
Had to cab down.
Thought I was late,
but my tutees were later.
If I knew, I wouldn't take a cab,
gee.
There goes my 16 bucks.
-cries-

But it's alrite,
Maureen accomapnied me till I reached
my tutee's house.
Lesson was long but fruitful today.
I gave them a compo to do.

After tuition,
I was talkingto Maureen after which
I was talking to Chris.

- May we're really drifting, I don't know,
I want so much to talk to you like I did last time,
to joke and share with you everything, but our
past haunts me. I know I can't go on accpeting your
goodness if I don't really feel the same anymore,
but at the same time, I just love the love you shower
on me. IT seems so different from the past, this love
keeps me wanting to embrace it. The problem is should
I keep you hanging or should I just let you go?

* What do you hope my answer will be?