SATURDAY

Can't remember much.

HAPPY 23rd WEDDING ANNIVERSARY
to you mum and dad!
May your love be the best in the world
and keep the flame burning.
Love you people.

I booked a place at Indulgz at Tan Quee Lan Street
for my parents,
so that they can have a romantic dinner
to reminicse the past.
Sweet eh?
It cost me 150 bucks!
But I guess it was worth it.

It was meant to be a surprise,
but my parents ended up being late,
so we had to cab down there.
Bleahz.
Thanks to Ah Nai and Marcus.
Appreciate it. =)

I let my parents enjoy their dinner
while I had mine with Cathy and Jer.
It was nice to see them again.
Missed my Libbies. =(
WE decided to have steamboat.
Yummy! I had a HUGE craving for that.
We were talking and eating.
Haha.

We left some space for dessert after which. Yes!
I ate pulut hitam with vanilla ice-cream.
Delicious.
Ah Chew's good.
Next time I'll introduce this place to my
other half. =)

After which, my tummy was bloated
and I looked like I was 5 months pregnant.
I'm dead serious.
I need to lose some weight. LOL.

I needed to be back home.
Therefore, we went to the MRT control station
at Bugis.
Met my dearest red one, so dashing.
Seriously, I kinda missed him.

That's all I can remember.

* The songs . .

SUNDAY

Happy Mother's Day to all
and especially to dearest Mummy.
=)

I love you everyday,
but I don't show.
Hope you know that.

Mass.
Shopped for groceries.

Home.
Showered.
Dinner.
Can't remember much about today.

* My mind's a blank.

MONDAY

Work.
Was supposed to be meeting the Club Rainbow
Youth Committee,
but I ended up working over time
and meeting Chris for dinner. LOL.

Maureen and DD joined us as well.
We were at the Orchard Hawker Centre having dinner.

Chris and I went to the Swensen's near
Crown Prince Hotel to have ice-cream.
It was sweet and all.
Thanks for the treat.

Met Shermaine on the way,
chatted for awhile before going home.

That's all I can remember.

Stupid Blogger!

TUESDAY

I was on MC.
Was over at Chris's place.
I can't afford to stay home and let
my mum nag at me.

Tuition after which.
It was great.
English is getting tougher.
GP's are killers! LOL.

Went for supper with Chris and Shermaine
at 85.
Sting Ray and Bak Chor Mee.
Sugar cane juice with lemon yes? =)

Home.

WEDNESDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Z.Y.
My loveliest sister.
One of my VERY important friends.
Trust me, I'm willing to die for her.
Okay, i'm serious.
She's been through my ups and downs with me.
I love her to bits.

May your 21st be the best year.
Stay happy and smile! =)
Loads of love for you.

Work.
Bought a gift for Jie.
A GUESS BAG.
$180.
Peng san.
But it's her 21st birthday, so no sweat. =)

After work, I went over to pick Jie and Samantha up
from White Sands before heading to the chalet.
There was loads of food!
Yummy!
Am such a pig!
Eric, Jiefu and all was there.
So it was fun even though there were only a few
people. =)
Enjoyed myself.

Cabbed home.
Slept.

THURSDAY

Work.
Supposed to have tuition,
but I cancelled it.

Coz I had to go for mass today.
Obligation day - Ascension Day.

I sold 12 cards today.
Yay!
My motivation comes from Chris.
Thanks.
=)

Ate dinner.
Home.
It's so mundane.
Haha, enough of routines.

I need some FUN.

* Mel's right, I need to cross the finishing line too.

Friday

Work as usual.
I was practically rushing coz
I had a major appointment with my Libbies.

I always look forward to meeting them.
Without a doubt,
they're one of the most important people in my life.
Not just mere words.
Coz they're really the best! =)

I rushed like mad but I was still late.
I only managed to meet Cathy at around 7p.m.
Sorry babe, made you wait so long.
We took a train to Khatib.

Was talking to Cathy and all,
just couldn't wait to see the rest.
When we arrived,
I finally got to see Cow for the first time
ever again.
Gosh, I miss my Lesbie. =)
My red one, boy I miss him too.
Saw Ranjini, the couple, I didn't really get their names
and Lionel with his gf Valerie.
LOL.
Didn't notice Lionel and his gf at all.
What a shame.
Waited for Jer to arrive, as usual.
The late king. LOL.

We walked over to the place where we had our dinner.
It was the Bottle Tree Park.
The restaurant there was alrite.
Food was like quite pricey.
-shakes head-
But at least everyone managed to eat their fill.
We mingled around and played some funny games.
Took pictures as well too.

The couple had to go, therefore leaving
the rest of us only.
So we just sat at a place and thought of games
and ghosts stories to share.
It was pretty interesting.

Cow had to leave, so we accompanied her to pack
food for her parents,
before sending her and Ranjini off asthey needed to go home.
Mel sent Ranjini home.
Jer, Cathy, lionel, Valerie and me took a slow
walk to the train station.
Wanted to go some place and chill,
but it was kinda late and Daddy didn't really wanted me
to stay out too late,
therefore we all decided to head back home.

Overall, it was good.
The outing, the food, the people.
Just that we had so little time to get
to know each other better.

Hope there are more chances.
But somehow it just feels weird.
-shrugs-

Had a lil tiff with Chris.
I don't even know why.
Maybe this hanging feeling is killing him.
I feel the closeness when I'm with him,
I do miss him at times.
But at the end of the day,
am I feeling the way I used to feel for him?

* Questions run through my mind like a racing car.

SATURDAY

I had to wake up early.
LIke around 10plusa.m,
coz I had tuition at 11.30a.m.
Tired.
But I'm committed. LOL.

I was still late for tuition coz the bus came late
and all, completely delayed and wasted my time
even though I left home early.

Had my lesson with my 2 wonderful students.
I'm glad I had students who knew how to listen
and think.
Had a fruitful lesson.
So I basically enjoyed it.

Jeremy asked me out for lunch,
but I couldn't go coz mum was not feeling well.
Had a case of diarrohea.
Poor mummy, so i packed food for her
and got her a packet of Lipton tea to ease
the purging.

Maureen too, asked me out for a movie
probably with Henry and Ryan,
but I told her I had to see how first.
Silyl girl, trying to match make Ryan and me.
At times, I really wonder, a girl like me . .
Would a hunky yet dashing guy like Ryan fall in
love with me or is even willing to go out with me?
It's not that I lack confidence,
but I know where I stand.
He's a guy,
I'm lesbian.
The chances of getting together, is probably close to nil.
Sorry babe.
But having Ryan as a good friend is not a bad idea after all. =)

I surfed the net,
chatte don msn.
Alex the prawn eater wanted to ask me out for dinner,
but I told him said I was too tired.
Seriously, I was.
Be it emotionally or physically.
I'm drained.
But another reason was coz of Chris and me.
I don't know what we are now.
This closeness is either hurting him or
making me like a bitch.
I feel really comfortable when I know he's here
to protect me and wipe away my tears.
But is this fair to him?
- shakes head-

I slept the whol afternoon through till around 8plusp.m.
I guess it was one of the best naps I had.
I felt much better after that.

Dinner.
Played Monopoly with my sis.

Chatter with Chris till the wee hours of the morning.
We talked about our past.
Our feelings.
I ended up breaking down again.
This time, in front of him after so long.
I cried so hard, my heart hurt so much.
My emotional breadown had another round of relapse again.
I thought I was strong,
but I realised I wasn't.
i was putting on that mask for far too long.
I need to be myself,
show my weakness.
Needed someone to protect and care for me.
Just to carry me, coz I'm too tired to carry on.

I'm so sorry if I scared you.
At times, I wished you told me to stay,
at times I wished you never let me go.
Because if you asked me to stay, i wouldn't leave.
Never.
But being the usual you, you compressed all your emotions,
never letting it out and expressing it to me.
That's why I left, I was too tired.
Too tired of salvaging our relationship without
your assuarance.
Blame me.
I ended up with another,
but don't be mistaken,
it took me alot to leave you in my heart,
in the past.
That amount of pain, I felt it as much as you did when
we parted.

Then I got hurt again,.
this time with a greater cut.
How many cuts can this fragile heart of mine bear?
If my heart spoke, would any of you whom i loved,
mend it up truly without me having to leak a tear again?

* I slept calling out to you.

Today has been alrite.
Mass.
Lunch.

Was supposed to go for some Club Rainbow,
introduction over tea,
but I didn't.
Coz it was like a last minute thing and
you know, my parents HATE such stuffs.
So I just cancelled it.

Jerrie messaged me asking me out
for lunch and to accompany him to
get his earphones.
I couldn't, needed to get back home for
some spring cleaning.
Sorry dude.
I'll make time for you one day yea? =)
huggies.

Spring cleaning.
Vacuuming,
mopping and all.
Tired, but it was a great workout.

Walked Belle,
got for my mum and dad stuffs.

Showered.
Slacked.
Watched Spider-man 2.
Oh, I love spider man. =)

It's just great watching the same movie as you,
it feels just like before.
Nothing much has changed,
just that fate has taken a turn. =)

Ate dinner.
Appetite has been on the low side these days,
probably coz I'm too tired out.
Need my beauty sleep before I look like a ZOMBIE.
LOL.

Waiting for my lil sis to finish her assignment
before continuing our game of monopoly. =)

Now I hope blogger allows me to post my entries.
It's been so long.
If not, I'll kill blogger.
LOL.

* I hope that people around me will have my happiness.