yesterday and today.
it's been hard.
i should say,
fer my baby and me.

my parents confronted my baby,
at ecp.
i was there.
forced me to say words that,
would hurt my baby.
but i didn't do it.
i can't,
i just couldn't.
i would not do that.
even if it was acting,
i'd cry buckets of tears,
coz it hurts me emotionally.
i'll not betray me feelings,
deny what my heart thinks,
or even cheat myself.

it seemed so bad.
baby was affected badly.
i could sense.
feel the pain he was going through.

but now it's better.
my parents have a different view towards him.
boy ; am i glad.
i'm contented.
knowing that they can trust him.
that i can be ensured in his care.

didn't go fer class.
coz i just couldn't.
not seeing my baby fer a day,
i feel that i couldn't breathe.
it was as if a part of me,
was taken away.
it felt so meaningless.
i didn't want to feel this way.
so i went to look fer baby.
hope he wasn't angry.

now rushing thru my assignments.
hah.
no worries.
i'm coping well.
life's chaotic,
but i have to be strong.
don't want anyone to worry.

Zy - thanx fer being there fer me always.
you're such a sweetie.
a wonderful sis like you,
should find someone who'd
love you and care for you soon.
coz a girl like you,
is hard to find.
you know i'm here always. =)

Cathy - thanx fer msging me,
asking me how i am,
getting all worried abt me.
you're a great girl
and a great friend. -huggies-

baby - there are many things i want to say to you.
how i feel, how my heart feels
and what i really think.
you can call me stubborn,
but i am not gonna give up
this r/s and love of ours.
i'll keep fighting,
coz i know we'd pull through.
we love each other so much,
how can we bear to let this love of ours,
just die and fade away?
It's a pity.
coz u're my soulmate,
my life partner.
i don't want anyone else.
The day i feel in love with you,
was the day i decided,
i'm going to stay by ur side,
to love you all the way thru.
i have no regrets in what i do.
coz i don't wanna deny,
the fact that without you,
i really cannot live.
continue perservering baby,
i know it's tough,
but we've got to help one another.
we've only go each other to rely on.
even if it's a lose-lose situation,
i'll take the chance.
coz i know if i don't take the chance,
i'll be disappointing myself.
most importantly,
don't ever shove me aside.
you know i love you very much.
missing you is what i do every single day.
i feel for you. =) muackz.

* when the world comes to an end and we're holding hands together, i'd kiss you and say, "at least in this life i was able to love you whole-heartedly. giving you my all. you're my happiness. i love you. miss you. this is not goodbye, it's just the beginning, our love story will continue till infinity."