my life is so dreadful now.
i can't think about anything now.

meaningless is the word.

when i'm busy,things are okay.
but when i'm not doing anything.
everything seem so unreal.
it's as if i'm a really big dream.
everything is so illusional.

everything comes to a standstill,
and here i am,
left all alone.
just thinking about you.
what you are doing?
are you eating?
are doing well?
are u watching tv?
are doing ur book?
are you with xin hua and jeredy?
many qns run thru my mind.
i just think about you constantly.
i'm going crazy.

book a room in IMH fer me.thank you.
i need it soon.

i believe.
everything will end.
this torturous event will end.
things will be fine.

good friday to all.
it's been an okay day.
the lord's with me.
he gives me strength.
thank you lord.i love you.

- i miss you
- i love you.
- i need you.
- i want you.

* wishing that this nightmare will end here. =(