i don't want anything.
i don't want to hear u speak.
i don't want you to do anything.
i don't want you to see anything.

just leave me alone.
plain biasness i what i see.
you PEOPLE like to torture me.
you want me to die inside right?
to suffer emotionally.
being the depressed me.

you don't know how much my heart's bleeding.
you can't hear my cries.
you don't feel a thing.
forget it.

can't you all see?
i'm nothing anymore.
i'm the jacinta who's empty inside.
jacinta has no feelings.
jacinta's numb already.
how long do you want to have,
a daughter who's already dead inside?

_she can't smile anymore.
_shes' the girl with the broken smile.
_she's the girl who's lost.

on a lighter note:

benedict's cute.
such a clever boy.
only three and he learns,
and speaks fast.
ooh..sweetie.
-hugs-
reminds me of javier.
i miss him.
i feel like carrying him in my arms,
and let him sleep soundly.
i love kids.
i want kids of my own.
NOW. lol.

- baby.. i miss you very much.
- i love you.
- do u know that i'm slowly fading?
- i just wanna be by ur side.

* don't mean to be pessimistic. i was forced to.