happy anniversary baby.
love yer.

2yrs 2mths.
how time flies.

time doesn't say much.
but our love's enough,
to conquer everything.

wanna be with you always. =)
muackz.

on a heavier note:

i'm seriously sick and tired.
of almost everything.

just feel like leaving this world.
all of a sudden,
i feel that i can't breathe.
no space,
no air.
keep having probs.
i wanna just settle them once and for all.

but i'm not given a choice.
like my dad said:
"whether u like it or not, u still have to do this."
"you don't have a choice."
Firstly, am i treated like a human?
i have my human rights.
where did it go?
i don't wanna rebel,
wanna get lectured all the time.

but who would really understand?
how i really feel?
what's deep in my heart?
what are the thoughts that run thru my mind?
misery,
sadness,
anger,
lost.
that's all i'm feeling.

my parents,
my grandfather.
prob my relatives also.

only my sister, z.y and my baby
are there fer me.
they might not really understand
why i do what i do.
but at least,
they're there when i needed them.

Thank you so much.
everyone who has been so supportive.
Cathy, Bea, Cow and Jer.
you guys rock! =)
i'm lucky to have friends like all of ya.

- i don't wanna feel jealous.
- i don't wanna sound possesive.
- i don't wanna voice out.
- but i really just wanna tell you,
- how i actually feel.
- to let you know my heart's condition.
- i don't wanna be living in insecurity.
- isn't everything suppose to be over?
- aren't we suppose to be settled?
- with her in our lives,
- can i really live peacefully?
- a big catch you are.
- that's why i'm afriad.
- so afraid that i'd lose you.
- it's not that i don't trust you,
- but i don't have confidence in myself.
- build that confidence up fer me will you?
- assure me, will you?
- i need you.

* love you alot baby, don't wanna live life w/o you.