Before I start ranting,
I'd like to wish my dearest dad a Happy 51st Birthday!
Yes, daddy's getting older and here am I still not achieving
anything at the age of 23. TSK.

Dearest Daddy, I never knew how much you were suffering all
by yourself, facing every single problem alone, not willing
to tell anyone for fear of us worrying.

Please don't be silly. You know that no matter what happens,
you'd always have me around. I'm your eldest daughter and the pride
of your children. :) I may seem like I'm wandering aimlessly without
a goal in my mind, but worry not as I have my own plans.

I'll make you proud to have a daughter like me.
I want everyone to know that because of you,
I am who I am today.
I want to be successful so I can tell the whole world,
how great a father you are.
You never cease to give up on me.
You believed in me and all the good that you see within me.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I want you to know that you hold an important place in my heart.
I love you, Daddy!
May God bless you throughout the days of your life.
May you be blessed with happiness and loads of TLC.
May you be blessed with good health as well.
*muackz*

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Now back to serious matters.
I was happily surfing the net just now, when my sis sat down
and talked to me about our family's situation.
I was pretty much taken aback about what I heard and completely
disgusted with the fact that such things were happening within
the family.

This was how the conversation went :

Sis: Jie.. you know something? Just now when I was taking something from mummy's room, she told me some stuffs.

Me: Huh? What did she tell you?

Sis: you know today is daddy's birthday right?

Me: Uh-huh.. Then?

Sis: Heard from what mummy say, Nek nek never even wish Daddy Happy birthday, then Ah Pek they all all outcast daddy, call him black sheep and all.

Me: Huh? Really? How come mummy never tell me all these?

Sis: No lar, coz I went to her room just now to take something, then I think she couldn't take it, so she just told me about it.

Me: I mean, seriously what is their issue? Nek nek can't even remember daddy's birthday? Why is Ah Pek saying that Daddy's a black sheep and all? They're all siblings, how can they talk ill about daddy like that?

Sis: i also don't know lar, but heard that coz Nek nek needs another applicant's name for the house she's staying in now, so she was asking if Ah Kong can put his name in. it's very leh chey coz next time all the hospital bills and all must send to the new address, coz now everything is under this address. Later must change the add in the I/c and all, then mummy don't want, ah kong also, that's why daddy's like in a fix ar.

Me: What the freak? Just coz of this then they wanna outcast daddy? I mean actually our family quite jia lat. Among all the ladies in the family, mummy's one of the more successful one, but still we're like always short of cash. Then the rest of them all quite rich. Maybe coz we have heart problem, that's why we are an outcast as well. I don't know how they see it, I know our cousins won't discriminate us, but maybe Vicky and Xavier will. As for the older ones, think they also discriminate us.

Sis: It's not our fault mar, but they also cannot just anyhow outcast people. Actually daddy's also very poor thing. Somemore we quite rebellious. Sigh.

Me: So what if Daddy dropped out in Sec 2, that doesn't give them the right to say all these. Gu-ma, I can understand, she needed to drop out of school to support the family, ah Pek's always sick, when they were much younger, Daddy was the one earning money eh.

Sis: Huh? Why leh?

Me: Coz daddy was so chubby when he was young, everyone wanted to give him food,
see, Nek nek got one less person to worry, coz daddy sure have food to eat every single day. HAHA.

Sis: Wah lau, that don't count lar. I mean, seirously lar, they can ask Nek nek to cook for them and all, make her travel here and there, then still wanna say Daddy. Choy lar! You see if Nek nek really passes away, you see what happens.

Me: If Nek nek was rich and had a fortune, you wait and see, everyone will be fighting with one another to gain the most out of it and they will leave daddy with none. You know, if Sa cek was around, things will be better, at least Sa Cek will be on daddy's side. Sa cek and daddy were really close since young. Sigh.

Sis: come to think of it, daddy's really very pitiful. They all keep saying that he's the black sheep, never give Nek nek money and all. Mummy's quite angry with them also.

Me: Of course angry lar, keep talking about daddy and all, say he's this and that, like machiam they're all very nice, they have money and their children all so big already, of course richer lar. It really upsets me to hear that even siblings talk about each other.

Sis: I feel like I'm going to cry, quite sad ar our lives.

Me: Wanna say so much about us. FUCK YOU! ( referring to all who talk bad about my dad), which is practically almost the whole family. ) You know, daddy always keeps things to himself, don't see him like that so quiet and all, I feel he's always very troubled. He can pretend like he doesn't bother and always ask us to spare a thought for mummy, but I think daddy suffers the most. Sometimes when I see mummy cry and all, I think daddy's more pitiful in a sense that he doesn't really express it out and it's really miserable to bottle everything up. * said all these in a shaky voice, tearing *

Sis: Aiyo, Jie, don't be like that eh, Emo eh. *tearing as well*

Me: you know when daddy works, he fixes the lights and all, he will have bruises on his hands, but yet he won't say a thing. *starts to cry*

Sis: Okay lar Jie, don't say already, I feel very emo, wanna cry already..

Me: Me too, okay, don't say already. Shooo! goo and bathe.

Sis: I think we should start being better kids.

Me: Yeah, I agree. Time to buck up!

That's how it ended.
Honestly, I'm very protective of my family.
Listening to what my sister said just now really made
my blood boil.
How is it possible to have siblings like that?
It's really disheartening.
My dad may not be rich,
he may not be able to give monthly allowance to his mother,
but at least for the very fact, he doesn't abuse the authority
he has as a son.
He doesn't ask her to cook for his children or do household chores.
He respects his mother and loves her a lot.

So what right do all of you have to condemn my dad
and term him the "black sheep" of the family.
After all you people have done, you peeps still have the
cheek to say such stuffs?
Don't think I ever forgot the day when Dad left Mum and
wanted a divorce, all of you were cheering and calling
my mum disgusting names.

I will never forget the things you peeps said to my mum,
if I were to point out every single one of you and reiterate
what you said 13 years ago, all of you would have been shamed.
All of you put my family through so much suffering and can
still act ALL SO ANGELIC when it came to family gatherings.

Cut all the act and tear down those plastic masks.
It just makes me feel that you people are nothing
but a worthless bunch of humans who go talking about
how great all of you are and how family bonding is needed,
when all you do is back stab and abuse your authorities.
I'm glad that my dad was my dad, if I ever had to choose again,
I'd definitely want Lee Soon Chai to be my dad all over again.

At least my dad has a pure and true heart,
not a malicious one.
So for all those who have been complaining about
what my dad does and doesn't do,
FUCK YOU!

I'm really very pissed now,
so you better don't step on my tail further.
When you see how much my dad and mum struggles for
the family, only will you know that they make better
parents compared to all of you.

For all those remarks that you peeps have commented,
I will prove that your brother has a pair of wonderful daughters
and a great wife.
I will show ALL of you how successful I can be.

When the day comes when I become rich and successful and
you want me to help you with your financial issues or your
children's in aptness to earn better to support you, I will reach
out my hands to help you, for I will prove to all of you that
my dad has taught me well.

But before any aid is offered, I would want ALL of you who are
guilty of posting such remarks to apologize to my parents.
Sincerely!

This is the very least I can expect from a bunch of imbeciles.
:/

Phew, I think this is one of the most harsh post ever blogged
in history. Haha. I'm just so pissed with immature adults.
It's true when children say, sometime adults also behave like
us and they don't even know what they want. Childish.

For my closest secondary school classmate, Carolyn.
Happy 23rd Birthday girl! Hope you're enjoying yourself
at Kbox now! May god bless you always.

For Godma, hopefully everything runs smooth for your family
and you and may you be safe and sound in God's embrace.
Happy Birthday as well! -huggies-

Love Daddy, Carolyn and Godma.

Good night world.

* I finally understood the pains of my parents.