just felt like posting now.
i'm late.
in miting my dear.
goin over to his house.
-shakes head-

guess i was too sleepy,
too tired,
i woke up arn 11.24a.m today.
-gosh-
and i told him i'll be there arn 12sumthing.
-ja and her big mouth as usual-
now baby's disappointed.
:(

am gonna prepare now.
waiting fer my grandfather to come back
and give me money fer today's allowance.
mum din leave a single cent.
yes,
i'm still sick.
coughing my lungs out and no one knows.
i need my baby's comforting hug.

[ ask me,
haf i felt differently?
i'll tell you honestly,
yes..i do.
i don't know why.
my feelings just tell me,
mayb we're really drifting.
i could think of a hundred ways to touch your heart.
you could think of that too,
but once in awhile.]

[ i asked if you could come down,
to see me,
coz i'm sick and can't get out.
but u told me you couldn't.
i was downright disappointed,
but i din let you know.
that very moment was a very important one to me.
i don't know why i'm feeling this way.
sometimes i feel.....
your friends are really important,'just you coming down..
you couldn't do it.
i couldn't do anything except to understand.
why is it that you could do it fer her?
and not me?
it kept me thinking about it....]

*ja's lost and feels like crying so hard, her heart will stop beating and she'll die.
* i seriously love you alot baby..can't you see?