07.01.11

TGIF! :) Start of class today and I'm so excited to see my group members once again.
It was such a long break after a horrendous and tedious assignment. It tired everyone out.
Our new lecturers for the class were a pretty cute pair. Ms Suefern had some great credentials,
holding a PHD, just like Mr Philip. It's amazing how people can progress all the way to getting
a PHD.

Everything seemed pretty alrite during the lecture, till Lisa, Faz and Sabrina decided to speak
in Malay behind my back. I don't know if it was a blessing in disguise, but one thing I'm sure,
they were talking about Jeremy and me. Thank goodness I was born a Peranakan. I understood
every single word that came out from their mouths and the intense discussion they were having,
without caring two hoots about us. It  was upsetting to know that they didn't want to give Jer and I
a chance after that incident during the course of the group assignment. It wasn't my fault and I was
very adamant that I had done my part. The late nights, the constant editing and findings of information
just for our research proposal had drained me out, but I was not even complaining.

Jer, on the other hand didn't do much for the assignment, of which I can understand the impression
he gave to them. I was honestly pissed off with him as well. It affected me the most because he was
my friend and I knew how he's like for the past 7 years, nonchalant and pretty much lazy, not to mention
lack of initiation. What do I do in this instance? I'm clueless. The class ended on a bad note because our
members were beginning to poach people from other groups.

Thank goodness class ended early, therefore I could make my down to Chinatown to surprise Bay.
That's what I like to do, give surprises. It is as much as I love receiving them too. :) *hint hint* Haha.
Bay was shocked to see me when he came out of the office and the smile on his face was worth it.
Looking at Bay kind got things off my mind for awhile and that was a great aid.

We took a cab back to his place with Laura, his colleague. The conversations they had in the cab
were all about work and the pressures faced. Bay was having a hard time in the company, yet he
still chose to maintain that image of a carefree person so that I didn't have to worry. It seems he
really has my interest at heart.

Back at Bay's place and I was already feeling tired. The both of us decided to take a shower and
then hit the sack. That was the initial plan, but Bay had a call to attend to and I received a message from
Sab saying the the group decided to split up and find new members because of the setback from the last
assignment. I expected that but not in this way. I can understand that were all affected by the inefficiency
of a particular member, but we should at least have an open talk to trash things out, instead of an SMS.

Seriously, do you really think a simple SMS can solve everything? It doesn't, in fact it made it worse.
We were just being thrown aside after being given the life sentence. It seemed all too easy, to just let
us go like that and not caring about what will happen to us. If it was me, I could honestly say I would give
that person a second chance. Everyone deserves a second chance, don't you think so? At least that's what
I believe. It got me really upset, I couldn't think properly. Just felt like crying out loud. It was just too much
to take.

It was a bad closure for the night, but I still slept well because I had Bay beside me. :)

08.01.11

It dawned upon me that as we entered the new term, our group had sort of disbanded.
It was pretty weird when the three of us were sitting in front of our lecture hall and the other
three at the back. It became apparent that they did not want to have much to do with us.
Not like I was being paranoid and over-sensitive but I knew that something was going wrong.

In the past, we always sat at the same place no matter what. It was like an automatic reaction
to be looking out for each other and making sure we were all seated together. When Lisa messaged
me saying that she could not see us and that they were late, therefore they were seated at the back,
it was obvious that that was not the case, the three of them were just trying to avoid us.

The next I knew, Jeremy and I were ousted out of the group.They had completely abandoned us
and nicely formed their group without even letting us know they did not us in the group personally.
They chose the quiet treatment of not even uttering a word to us and that was too much to take.
I decided to just let things be the way they are because that is what they really want and it's fine
with me because my conscience is clear.

Instead of crying over spilled milk or pondering over this problem. I took things into my own hand.
I managed to find a group for Jeremy and I. Sad as it may sound, the 3 new members were also
left to fend for themselves. We exchanged our experiences and I could sense the helplessness within
them. I assured them that things will be fine and that as a new group, we would move forward together.
It didn't matter if I spoke to Faz or Sab anymore, all that mattered to me was the future assignments
ahead and the strength to move on. My constant motivation was the acknowledgement I had from Lisa
and Adelia, their constant true friendship surfaced because they were really disturbed by the decision.
Even when they were in a different group, they still took the effort to sit with us and talk to us whenever
they could. Thank you lovelies, it must have been hard on you girls. Don't worry about us, we'll be fine. :)

Rini, Fiona Jeremy and Shahidah, we can do it! Go. go. GO! :)
We ended class well at the end of that day.

Jeremy, Lisa and I decided to share a cab as Jeremy and I were rushing for our appointments.
I was so excited to meet the girls! I missed them so much. Carolyn, Zy and Amanda.
I headed down to Tampines Mall to meet up with the girlfriends and decided on having dinner
at the nearby coffeeshop. The curry fish head was good, tender and succulent. Yummy!
Great to be sitting down, having dinner and chatting the night away.

We wanted to drink KOI after dinner but they were closed by the time we reached there.
Just for your information, there is a KOI now at Tampines. It's near the interchange, just beside
Cash Converter. :)

We settled for Starbucks instead. As much as coffee makes me sleepy, I pulled through 2 and
a half hours of nonsense with the girls. We talked about our jobs, families, relationships and the
list goes on. Lucky for us, the four us stayed pretty near one another, all within the vicinity.
Tampines, Simei and Bedok. :)

It was a fruitful night, thank you ladies. We should do that again some time soon!

09.01.11

Good morning to a beautiful Sunday!
I woke up with the intention of attending mass with my parents and gramps, but it was soon called off
because I had to pay a visit to the doctor. I was coughing my lungs out so badly, it was hurting and my
left eye was swelling badly, so my mum advised me to go to the doctor instead of Mass. Health was
more important, she was always worried for me since I was young. It must be really hard on her to
raise two children with congenital heart diseases.

I heeded my mum's advice and went to the nearby clinic. HL Family Clinic and Surgery.
There were quite a couple of people there, young and old. Seems like the weather gets to you.
I was expecting the doctor to be a guy, but it was a lady instead. She was a very nice doctor.
She paid attention to what I was trying to tell her, although half the time I was coughing like mad.
My left eye is infected with a sty. :( Thank goodness it's nothing major. I was prescribed antibiotics,
cough syrup, lung tonic and a cream for my eye. I get to claim for my medical bill. Whee! :P

I packed 2 packets of chicken rice, an iced lemon tea and a sour plum drink for my sister and I.
Felt like a mum buying lunch for her daughter. So aunty! Haha. I'm not getting younger, I'll be in
my mid 20s this June. :( Got back home, surfed the net and took my medication.

Spoke to bay on the phone for awhile before I knocked out and slept till 7.30pm.
I woke up and I had dinner ready for me. Thank you mummy and daddy. :)
I ate my fishball noodles and watched Indiana Jones on channel 5 with my dad.

Bay's out with his friends. I hope he enjoyed himself. He's always home and waiting for me.
It's time he went out to have some fun with friends, probably dinner, movies or pool.

I'd have to end off my entry for today. I'm getting tired, must be the medication.
Feeling drowsy and my bed's calling me. :) On a random note, I want to go prawning soon.

Take good care of yourselves everyone.
Live life to the fullest and don't let life's setbacks bring you down.
What doesn't kill you makes you a stronger person.

With love,
Miss J :)