Life is so fragile.
Just when I was out with my Libidos,
news of mama just had to come in.

Daddy told me that mama was not gonna make it.
I saw mummy was crying silently to herself,
I knew she got upset.
I knew she could not take the news.

Although she's pretty much sound asleep now,
I know deep inside she's breaking and that's upsetting.
I wish I could just be like my mum and cry it all out.

I wish I could let it be known that I am not strong,
that I have so much going on in my mind and heart
that I'm bursting.

In tears.
In sorrow.
In seclusion.

I wished and hoped that I could have the support of
one very particular person, the one I call my dear.

That I could hear him say something,
that he would cheer me up,
that he would comfort me.

Sometimes, I don't expect or need much.
I just need a shoulder to cry on.
A person to confide in.
I wish you could see that I'm breaking inside.

I am, dear.
I need you.
But apparently, you are not here with me.
Not even emotionally or mentally.
I am disappointed coz no matter what I do,
it never seems enough for you as a girlfriend.

I have failed tremendously.
Sorry for being so lousy in your eyes.

Why do I have to fight this battle by myself?
I'm afraid, but do you care?
As I type this, I'm crying and honestly,
I have no idea why I'm crying?

Maybe coz I just can't hold it in any longer.

I really don't want mama to go.
I seriously don't wanna lose her.

Even if I did, would you be there for me?

* Am I expecting for the sky?