Maybe you'd never know or you haven't noticed.
Times when I try to speak, my voice fades.
Times when I wanna tell you how much you mean to me,
I brushed it off.
Times when I wanna say I Love You, I swallowed back
those words.

All these hesitations, stabs to the heart.
I know I should express and be opened about
my feelings towards you,
but circumstances don't permit me to.

I dwell in the misery of knowing that
you'd never love me the way I love you,
that all your promises were made coz
you didn't wanna hurt me.

But what you're doing now is tearing me apart.
For a very long time, I haven't felt so much pain.

This pain, I can never express in words.
My heart totally broke yesterday.
Heavy, silent yet piercing.
Tears filled my eyes, like water in an abyss.
The depth of such sorrows, you'll never hear.

For the constant 4years and now,
I'm still waiting.
Waiting for what?
I thought time could tell me that fate has
finally relented, that I could finally be with you.

But the cruel fact is I never had your heart.
Never have, never had and never will.

There's only so much a person can take.
After all I've done, I could never measure up to
anyone in your life.

Coz I feel that I became nothing,
I was only valued as a very good friend and someone
whom you know will always be there for you.

You asked me if I could wait for you,
I told you, waiting isn't the problem,
the problem lies in the fact that no
matter how hard I try,
you'd NEVER be able to love me.

I'm sorry for you, coz you don't know who you want.
I'm sorry for her coz she can't have you anymore.

But who's gonna feel sorry for me?
For being that fool in love and that
faithful girl who was willing to do
anything for you.

* When God sent you back into my life, did he meant otherwise?