26.02.2005

sometimes,
ppl just don't understand.
what situation u're in.
you know that,
what you do may not be right.
but what if..
you just couldn't take it anymore?

is anyone in the same scenario as me?

1. i have a heart problem.
2. doc says i may not be able to live long.
3. parents don't accept me fer hu i am.
4. i am a lesbian.
5. keep having quarrels over my issue.
6. my curfew has been cut.
7. i almost got grounded.

seriously..
i seem cheerful and optimistic all the time.
but i'm really tired..
of all these.
why can't my parents accept me fer hu i am?
things wld be fine then..

i have to go thru it agn.
i'm grateful to my parents.
i thank god fer them.
coz w/o them,
there'll be no me.
but why can't they see?
how i really feel?

of all my 19 years as a person,
i never asked fer anything.
all i ask fer is,
fer them to accept me.
that's all..
can't they just do it?

i know it's wrong.
but i've already decided.
mummy,daddy,ah kong.
please,
do me this favour?
let me go....

i don't like the feeling,
of being caged up.
i'm gonna breakdown soon.
i love all of you.
i don't wanna hurt u all.
esp mummy.
you're the best and i love u the most.
but yet,u're always hurting me,
consistently.
i don't wanna hate you.
don't make me mummy. please?

* i just want to face reality. can u all accept it?