i've learned a good lesson.

i should say..
in life..there are always setbacks.
some of which we ourselves don't expect it to happen.
what should we do?
i hate to admit it.
but i guess that's just how life goes.

with our parents to guide us,
we just have to follow.
i noe it's fer the best of me.
but i should say..
for once,i would like to go against their will.

i'm sorry mum n dad.
fer my stubborness.
but i would like to ask fer ur forgiveness.
i don't want to hurt any of u.
but i really love chris.
i wanna be with him.
in this life, i'm going to be with him.
just let me be..
alrite?
please?
don't ruin my future.
without him..
i'll vanish..
even if u took him away from me.
all u haf left of ur daughter here..
is just her body..
but not her soul n heart..

would god be so kind to grant me this wish?
i hope so.
i'll pull through till the end.

until u tell me you don't love me anymore dear...
i noe in this case..
u've always been on ur guard.
living this life with me.
i don't want to see you upset or suffer.
i jsut want you to be happy.
but if u really can't take it..
tell me..
i'll let you go..
no matter how much it hurts..
or how my heart breaks..
coz i noe that's the best way out..
n when that happens..
dun bother abt me..
i'll be fine...
just rem tt i love you...

i noe tt w/o u..
life will never be the same again.
i'll never stand up agn.
i'll lose hope n break down..
but i just want u to be happy..

[ ja loves chirs fer all eternity ]

--- ja's trapped..help me...---