i guess i'm going to vanish tonite.
i guess i'll be in heaven tonite.
i guess my life will just end this way.

i wished things wouldn't end this way.
would my mum ever noe...
how much she's hurting me?
i love her alot....
but why must she do this to me?

why do u keep checking on me?
i dun understand...
can't i even keep him as a friend?

i love him..
i will always do..
nothing u do will change my view..
even if u killed me..
i'm still gonna love him..

would anyone help me?
my heart's broken..

i just want to die knowing that i love him..

once everything's back to normal..
i'll return..
but fer now..
i just feel like sleeping..fer a very very long time..
not waking up at all.........


[[ ja's breaking down ]] ---- havin suicidal thoughts