a lot of things has been happening recently..
hard to type everything out..
so far..
concerning my love life and my friendships..
everything seems to b improving..
and i'm glad it is...

but as for family ties..
it's not..
i think it's getting more and more strained..
i seriously do not noe how to communicate wif my parents anymore..
ever since that fateful day..
that everything happened again..
even when i'm 17 turning 18..
such things still do happen..
i can forgive my dad..
but i'll never forget..
i'm big enough to noe what to do..
n i do not need them to make decisions for me..
i wanna b with the person i love..
to decide what i wanna do..
n not them ruling it for me..

sometimes..i wish i was a free bird..
but at times i love being in their comfort..
contradicting huh?
oh well..i dunno...
and i dun wanna bother abt this stuffs anymore..
if they think tt ttz the best for me..
den let it be it...

fosaid - i still do love u lots..
do remember this..
no matter what happens to me..
or what i'll haf to go thru to b wif u..
i still will love you always.....
missing you loads.. - BdUhCoZ..