It's pretty dumb.
I changed my blog template but I didn't
update my post. *silly me*

Major event that happened to me.
I got hospitalised.
*yeah, tell me about it! *
I got diagnosed for a rare kind of condition.
It's called Saggital Sinus Thrombosis.
Sounds rather intimidating eh?
In simpler terms, it's just a mild stroke.

Honestly, I never imagined I'll have this coming.
But it's over and I'm okay.
so chill pill.
I don't wanna start pointing fingers at people
and all.
I'm still in one piece and to be exact, am walking
pretty much well now.
With the help of the cordstick and my determination,
I'll walk perfectly again.

I dont know if God's constantly helping me
and loving me in every single way.
He does everything for the best of my interest.
I lost all my friends coz I gave them up.
Now after this, I finally realise that no
matter what harsh and selfish things I did to
them, they're still willing to visit me and talk
to me.

No one will ever know the joy that I feel.
The excitement in seeing them again.
They may not have forgiven me, but at least
I know they still care a whole load about me.
And that's enough.

I'm contented with the fact that I have them
back in my life, maybe not fully but slowly.

And for this very person, Chris.
I'd like to thank her so very much
for always being there even though
I hurt her very much in the past.
She has never left my side,
she took every effort to make sure I was okay.
Accompanying me through those lonely nights.
I'm happy whenever I'm around her.
She's like my happy pill. =)

We maybe exs,
we may jolly well be only friends now,
but no matter what, she'll always be important
to me.
She might just see me as a normal friend.
But her place in my heart will never be replaced.
On the account that I spent close to 5years with her.

Thank you once again, for bringing that smile to my face again.

For Zy and Carolyn,
CHEERS to the both of you.
For being the pillars in my life.
Watching me go through many silly
moments of my life.
But both of you never left,
no matter how mad and upset I made the both of you.
Thankful to you two for letting me know how
much a friendship means and how lovely life is
with friends like the both of you.
MY sisters.
MY besties.
MY pillars for 9 whole years.
God bless the both of you always.
And I'm really sorry for everything.

I Love you ZY.
I Love you Carolyn. =))

My Libidos.
It's been nearly 5 months since I last
saw all of you.
Familiar faces but there's this distance.
Can't blame anyone but me, I was the cause of it.
Can see the many changes.
My triplet is all independent and matured now.
My lesbie learns how to cope life on her own.
My darlz grew up but yet still lustful :P (kidding)
MY red one became stronger, learning to solve problems
on his own.
Did my exit leave them scarred?
Did my absence make them realise that life isn't
always that smooth sailing?
Sigh. There's so much to say.
I just wanna let all of you know, that I've
never once forgotten any of you.
I may have not contacted and seem to not bother,
but every minute of everyday, I miss all of you.
I think back about the times we shared,
I cry.
All those silly moments and love for each other,
we never felt any closer.
I want this bond back and I hope
it's not too late to make amendments.

* I'm not asking much. I just want another chance.