Been feeling too emo these days.
I have no idea why.

I'm in BIG trouble for almost everything.
Feel like my life's so screwed.

I have to answer to people at work tomorrow
and I got a feeling they kinda hate me.
Numbers and all, it's pretty sickening.
I just somehow feel that even though I have
good PR skills with people, I just can't seem
to fit in, coz money isn't my goal.

MY family life?
As usual, pretty much the same old thing.
My dad thinks I'm still like a lil kid,
my mum thinks the worst of me.
Have so many people to answer to.
Sis wonders if my pay is in?

How is it possible to meet everyone's expectations?
My relationship is on the rocks.
I keep quarrelling with girlfriend.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
Fault me, blame me, my bad.
Sometimes I'm just like this angelic figure
who actually has a devilish me within,
therefore I commit mistakes,
I'm only human too yea?

I put up an image that makes baby look bad,
be it in front of her friends or mine.
I'm the cry baby, she's like the bully.
Maybe people don't see the other side of me and her.
Communication, we used to have it, but it seems
we've lost it.
She misunderstands my intentions, I attack her
harshness, squabbling almost over nothing
and yet hurting words keep flowing,
the heart's filled with stabs.
BOTH of us, we need to do something.
I'm sorry if I put too much pressure on you baby.

I do love you,
but I don't have the confidence to tell myself,
I'm your best.

You asked my expectations of you.
Simple, your constant care,
your unconditional love, your willingness to
share with me your sorrows.
That's all I'm asking for, can you do it?

I know you well enough to be understood.
We've been together for so long,
have we come to a stage of stagnant notion?

I just hope things really will work out for us.
I loved you so much, just like you do for me.
We're here together still because we believe
we'd work out, can you and would you be able
to pull thru this with me?

I was out yesterday with Jac,
it was fun and all.
did alot of catching up,
she made me laugh like mad
and I had to acc her go shopping for
birthday pressies, but I got a treat back
from her as a token of appreciation.
LOL.
Thanks alot dude for the lunch treat.
It was all nostalgic, but it was a good outing,
a pure, simple and happy outing.
It really felt so good to have seen her again.
I haven't seen her for so long.
I'm glad she came back from Perth and asked me
out for lunch. Sweet Jac.
That's her, nothing short of that.
I've always felt she's just like my mirror
reflection. Haha, I'm glad she's my BESTEST
drama buddy till now. =)
I thank God for her in my life.

My dearest red one, he's finally responded!
yay! I was so happy when I was able to talk
to him today. Oh gosh, you're so missed!
We ARE and WILL meet up soon.
You've been away too long, it's time
to come home to where you belong,
THE LIBIDOS.
I LOVE these bunch of crazy folks of mine,.
they're like the sweetest and craziest folks
that are so willing to cry, laugh and most
importantly support you when you're hurt. =))

Was watching Presiden't Star Charity.
Those poor people, those suffering,
I really empathise with them.
Their courage, their undying optimism
and most importantly, love within them
has given me a wake up call.

They taught me the need to cherish life,
the need to love unconditionally,
the fact that life is cruel but amidst
all these tribulations, there lives the
purest of all, the heart to give and
not expect anything in return.
How many can do this?
Not even me.

Charity in Singapore is evident,
but how many people are willing to part
with their money and donate to these beneficiaries?
Even a $5 donation is said to be too much.
How atrocious is that?

I wished the world could open their eyes
and pay more attention to the people around
us. LOOK! There are people here who needs help,
why don't we try to help when we can?

COMPASSION. Sad to say, I don't really see
it in people these days.

* What's love to you?