as i'm sitting all alone,
facing the comp,
i just feel like crying,
listening to my
favourite songs,
tears seem inevitable.

i was wondering,
my everyday life,
for all that i'm living for,
seems to have come
to a halt.

my fainting spell
woke me up.
i couldn't see heaven,
neither could i see hell.
but i would really hope
to have seen you.
but as i open my eyes,
you were not there.

the one i depended on,
the one i lived for,
the one i love,
the one i cared about so much,
the one i missed every single day,
the one whom i want to spend the
rest of my life with.

you just weren't there.
the disappotnment came,
when i didn't even see you
at the hopspital.
my constant waking up,
to finding you not here
with me,
scares me.
i'm so afraid,
i'm so alone,
i'm so lost.

if i could understand,
i would.
but now it's not about
understanding,
it's about showing me
how much i mean to you.

the efforts,
the sacrifices,
even my life
was not enough.

not enough to even
make you feel that
you can count on me
and that i'm willing
to love you always.

you're afraid of falling,
so am i.
but i don't let fear conquer
my hope of being with you
for the rest of my life.

my constant giving in
pressures you,
i know.
it's alrite.
i just want the both of us,
to go through everything together.
we have each other,
so don't worry baby.

* tell me that it's okay, we'll pull through this.