okay.
here i am again.
ja's back.
anyone happy?

there have been loads
that's been happening.
hard to describe
and put them all in words.

i just want to give credit
and apologise to a few people.

my lil sis,
i miss you loads.
the whole time i was away,
i was worried about you.
don't worry,
i'm back to accomapny you,
through the HGF,
you should know what i mean.
love you as always. ("v")

first things first,
i'd like to apologise
to my one and only clique.
z.y, amanda and kenix.
sorry to make all of u worry.
it's great knowing
that you people care
and are really worried about me.
i didn't mean to just leave like that.
forgive me.
you peeps have been my good old buddies,
i'm sure u understand my problem.
thanks alot for everything.
i'll never forget u peeps.
love yer all. =)

second,
this apology and credit
goes out
all the way
to my dearest Libidos.
you don't know how much
you people mean to me.
i'm saying this from the bottom of my heart.
ALL of you have been so great,
so supportive,
so encouraging
and even more so
loving.
where can i find peeps like ya all?
i'm really sorry
to put all of you through
so much pain, worry
and trouble.
trust me,
i didn't have the intention to.
thanks for all that you have done.
i appreciate it very much.

mel, my red one.
thanks alot.
you've been really patient
and supportive.
always will be my husband. hehe. =)

cathy,
my tremendous triplet,
you've been wonderful,
knocking sense into me
and making me see the full picture.
you are a sensible girl,
who can endure
and challenge almost everything
that comes in your way.
i admire your courage.
love yer girl. =)

cow, my one and only IT.
you were there
taking everything in ur stride,
to support me
and encourage me,
laughing with me
and sharing my sorrows.
without you,
i'd die of sadness. lol.
you rock girl.
*huggies* =)

jer, my jer jer!
haha, that will never change.
just like to call u that,
sound so original.
a happy belated birthday,
didn't have a chance to wish you.
didn't mean to crash the brithday plans,
sorry.
may you be blessed with many good rewards.
thanks for bearing with me,
i put u thru quite alot
and i'm sorry abt it.
jsut be happy yea?
in life, we always have setbacks,
but just as long as
you stand strong
and be optimistic,
nothing will bring u down.
take good care yea? =)

bea, my lil girl.
where are you?
aren't you coming back
anytime soon?
i miss you tons.
a happy belated birthday to you as well.
didn't wish you.
felt so bad abt it.
hope u understand yea?
may you be blessed with good health
and a happy life.
missing u as always,
come back and accompany
your lonely mum here.
hope to see u soon. *huggies* =)

Marc, thanks for always,
and never failing to be there
for me,
when i needed you.
you are indeed a treasure.
take good care there.
catch up soon yea? =)

i'm quite disappointed in you,
sort of a betrayal thing.
i know you did it for my own good,
i'll get the picture soon.
but i guess i could forgive you,
coz you just mean so much to me.
give me time to cool down.
i'll be in contact with you soon.

i still love you,
i still do.

* loving you ain't difficult, missing you ain't easy. *