when the world around me,
seems so unreal.

i stopped for awhile,
to think back
and look around,
what i find is nothing but shadows.

All dark shadows,
overpowering the light
that i've been desperately
reaching out for.

All i ever wanna do,
was to reach out for the light,
and tell myself,
it's just an illusion.

i tried waking myself up,
but what i don't see is that,
slowly, bit by bit,
darkness is overpowering me.

I try my best to fight it,
but it's just too strong,
my defense being weak,
i fall,
so deep,
when i pick myself up,
i realise that i lost my way.

who's going to come into my illusion?
who's going to save me?
who's going to reach out for me?
i keep calling,
but no one answers,
i seem strong on the outside,
but i need comfort and protection as well.
where is all this leading me to?

The END?

B; can't you see?
you mean so much to me,
i wanna spend an entire lifetime with you,
you know i would.
the love i have for you is as strong as ever,
how can i make you see,
how much you mean to me?
i'm sorry if i need you too much,
i'm sorry if i breakdown,
i'm sorry if i love you too deep,
i'm sorry for wanting you,
i'm sorry if i think abt you 24/7.
i can't help it.
you're still the one.

marc; i hope you understand,
what i'm going through.
i have to live life,
knowing that i lost a good friend like you,
the feeling's bad.
i just hope that you'd be happy,
even if we're not in contact anymore.
take good care.

* LOVE ME. =`(