happy anniversary to you baby...
to us..
well..i'll take it like our one year n 3months together..

ya noe..i'm suppose to b feeling happy..
to b excited..
to be overjoyed..
coz this is how we made it thru...
how tough it was..but we still kept goin..
until now.......

//but y is it that i'm not feelin happy..
like before?
why has the feeling changed?
what exactly has happened?
is there so much difference afta we broke up?
is the love getting lesser?
i dun understand...
it's always been you that i've loved..
rite from where we started..
but y does it seem to me...
that ur heart's not wif me anymore?
y does it feel like we've drifted apart..
what went wrong?
it's not that i don't believe that u still love me..
i noe you do still love me..
but itz not as strong as before...
i noe i cant compare last time n now..
but..it seemed like a dream..
i was ur lil angel...
the lil girl u had to take care of..
n ya did a very good job..
loving this lil girl of urz..
pampering her..loving her like therez no other..
n just giving her ur all..
u missing her when shez not wif u..
u wanting to see her almost everyday..
u calling her n tokin to her thru the nite..
u wishing her happy anniversary almost every month..
u making her happy...
u msging her all the time..
just wondering what ur lil angel was doing..
that was beautiful..
this wonderful picture that this lil angel of urz is still holding close to her heart..
this perfect picture..
the effort u put in just to prove how much u love her...
but where is it nw?
has it vanished?
or this lil angel of urz has become just an ordinary being..
din ur lil angel prove to u how much she loved u?
do u blame ur angel for being jealous at times..
do u blame her coz of things she said of how she felt?
do u blame ur angel for being like that?
do u blame ur lil angel for not being perfect?
do u blame ur angel for giving u probz?
do u blame ur angel for just loving u?
n lastly..do u blame her for being hu she is?
baby..i noe i'm not perfect..
i noe i make u angry n disappointed..
but i have not done anything wrong or betrayed u...
but y is it..that even now..a show is more impt than tokin to me?
even now...the feeling's just not the same anymore..
i'm trying veri hard baby..
i dun tell u how i really feel..
for the fear of losing you..
so i just blogged my feelings out...
n mayb i'm being over-sensitive..n just thinking too much...//

-wished we were like before...
will we return to that path?
will u love me just as much? -

[[ i'm lost..my heart aches..i'm down..]]