woke up like 10.30a.m in the morning..
coz Carolyn wanted 2 pass me sum VCD's..
so tt i can watch n pass tym..
the VCD's were nice 2 watch..
i'm already at the 7th disc..lol..
itz entitled ' tou tou ai shang ni '
so sweet sia..so touching..
when i start 2 watch these kind of love stories..
i wun stop..
coz itz wld remind me of her..
reminising the tyms i had wif her..
every moment spent..
every laughther n joy..

had cca 2day..
it was cool as usual..
we got dwn 2 sum serious stuffs 2day..
like planning 4 orientation n SYf..
2 major projects cumin up..
budden it turned out fine..
every1 had ideas..so we chipped in..
n sort of try 2 work out the basic plan..
i played a few roles 2day..
the 'Director", the ' The Sexy miss Vampire' & Sharon..the elder sis of katie..
the main gal of our story..
when it ended..i accompanied Priya,Denise n Leah..my juniors..
2 walk 4 a distance..
at the same tym..go get myself a Mr. Softee..chendol ice-cream..lol..
but guess wat?
when i got there..they only had Vanilla flavour..*faints*

so i bought cookies instead..
went back hm n continue 2 watch the VCDs..
ate my dinner..
but din really feel like eating..coz i dun haf the appetite..
dunno y also..
mayb i'm 2 full or sumthing..
been eating alot lately..
*gosh* there's only 1 reason behind it..
n ttz when i'm having depression..
but y shld i feel depressed?
i'm happy now.....
*hai*

# wat m i suppose 2 do now?
# can sum1 tell me?
# watz wrong wif me?
# y do i feel so empty inside?
# n everytym when i stop occupying myself wif things..
# i'll start 2 think of her..
# den i'll miss her..
# afta awhile..my tears will start 2 flow..
# but wat can i do now?
# tell her tt i'm still waiting 4 her n tt i love her?
# itz impossible..i noe that..
# but i juz simply can't go on like that..
# i'm goin crazy..juz sitting dwn n misisng her like mad..
# i'm losing my sanity..
# i juz hope tt sum1 can tell me wat 2 do..
# so that i can gif up on her..
# i've tried many tyms..
# my heart broke in2 pieces many tyms 2..
# but as long as i dun get ova her..
# my heart will still hurt..n the wound wld be deeper den eva..
# she's the only person hu can make me smile n cry..
# no1 else can..
# ttz y..itz so hard 2 let her go..
# she's so sweet n caring..
# if she wasn't tt caring..i wld gif her up easily..
# but now..i juz can't bring myself 2 leave her or even hate her..
# watz wrong wif me?
# juz sum1...sum1..any1..help me...

- Ja is losing her sanity.. -