*geez* 2day is really the most horrible..cursed n jynxed day..
juz dunno watz wrong sia..
i mean itz my sista's bday n bad things haf got 2 happen..
watz wrong? *shucks*
anywayz...Happy Birthday Mei!`
*haha* u're a year older now..
u've turned 13..so cool rite? lol...
n i'm sure ya like the pressie i gave u eh? *hehe*
i'm juz sad 4 ya..coz on ur bday..
bad things has got 2 happen...*man*
went 4 my cousin's wedding lunch 2day..
it was an 8 course dinner..
*haha*
ppl 10 course..my cuz got an 8 course..
not bad eh? lol..
wah!~itz was like os formal n grand..
it was held at hyatt hotel..
i guess itz kind of a 5 ***** hotel rite? lol..
i dun really like formal stuffs..
coz haf 2 behave gentle n everything..
yea..ttz basically it..
all my cuz was ther except 1..
*gosh* i miss him..so long nia see him liaoz..
he ar...*pengz* dunno whr he went 2..
budden my godma daughter came..
her name is Marie..dun really socialise wif her lar..
coz she's anti-social..n watz worse..
she thinks her english excels veri well..
n therefore dun wanna mix wif us..these kinda *cheena* ppl..
wat sia..act so matured..man..can't stand sia..*haha*
but the food was ok..ate 2 my fill..
den my cuz n her husband pour champagne..
den cut the wedding cake..
n when they said their speech..*gosh* so sweet n *rou ma* ..*tao yen* lol..
ltr we headed dwn 2 Tampines..
my sis wanted 2 go 2 the arcade..
so i decided 2 accompany her..
play n stuffs like tt..
n so we did..had a fun tym at the arcade at 1st..
budden the horro came...
when my parents came n join us 4 awhile..
i lost my sis n my wallet!~ can u believe it?
i mean like iw as like holding on 2 it all the tym..n it was pick-pocketed!
*darn* i curse the person hu took it sia..lol..
my wallet had the most precious things inside..
n so did my sis..
*gosh* how can sum1 do tt 2 us?
my mum went ballistic..
she was so furious abt it..
afta all the commotion..
we went 2 Kenny Roger's 2 eat..
den we went hm str8 away...
ltr..we celebrated my sis bday..
cut cake n stuffs like tt...
guess my mum is still veri upset wif me..
i juz hope she cools dwn..
i really feel veri bad 2..
*gosh* i feel like i'm always givin my mum trouble..
i always screw things up..
my lyf's in a mess...
sumtyms..how i wish i cld juz end my pain ..end my lyf..
i'm so tired of everything..
sum1 help me..........*haiz*
- even 2day..when things go all wrong..
i'm still thinking of you..i miss u like crazy..
only if we were wat we used 2 b..
i would always noe..
tt i could turn 2 u..
n seek 4 comfort..
i noe u would do everything 2 help me...
but now...look wat has happened...
i lost you..n i lost my lyf..
the faith n confidence tt i haf in myself..
is slowly vanishing..
i dun think i can take this any longer...
i'm breaking down...*hai*
i juz wish tt everything wld b back 2 wat they are...-
+ afraid of the future +