There are things, people and events
in our everyday lives,
that makes us feel all emo and fed-up.

I couldn't say it didn't happen to me,
or rather it happens to me all the time.
I'm not trying to be a pathetic fool
who complains about how life sucks,
when your parents are giving you
100% shit and no understanding.

It's no doubt,
i'm always facing this endless problem.
It seems to drag on for centuries.
Like it's always said,
"Good things always come to an end."
I'm begininng to see some truth in it.
A minute they're good to you,
the next, they scream at you as if
you're their sworn enemy.

I've kinda got used to such attitudes,
thrown all over the place.
I'm pretty okay, although,
the heart still feels like it
got stabbed too many times
with different daggers or spears,
flying from all directions.
I bleed,
they bleed,
everyone's bleeding.
What for?

Such words and actions are
so not called for.
Waste of time, energy and lack
of communication.
Why break the bond?
Seriously, total childish behaviour.

I badly wanted a chalet for my 20th birthday,
a chalet that i've been hoping for,
since 16,
which i never got.
All thanks to my mum and dad.

Parents?
Yes, they love us,
they brought us up,
watch us grow and groom us
to be successful and useful people.
Contributing to the society always.
Grateful as we may be,
this doesn't give them the right
to control everything,
since you're already reaching 20.

Come on, give me a break.
My own Chalet,
my own style okay?
Goodness, you people just have to
poke your nose into every business of mine.
None that i can handle or even manage.
Who am i to you?
A girl who never grows?
Cut the crap, i don't wanna hear no more.

You're officially hated!
Mum, you paid that extra 25 bucks,
to see that smile on dad's and your face,
not considering the pain i'm going through.
How cruel?
I wanted to plan it myself and
invite all my friends,
be it you like it or not.
Coz i love them and there's nothing you can do about it.

It's fine if you paid for my chalet.
But hell no!
I paid it with my very OWN money.
And i have to let you run the show?
Kick my ass then.

I don't need such parties.
You might as well have
some lovey-dovey nights together,
and i'll just probably stay home
and watch TV throughout,
spending my birthday laughing at cartoons
or making fun of myself.

That'll give you the ultimate joy right?
I'm sure.
You people always talk about logic,
sometimes it's so contradicting,
i can't believe that you peeps are my parents.
Hah.
don't make a fool out of yourself,
it doesn't mean that you treating me nicer
now is going to help you atone for your mistakes,
in fact, i'm never like before.

I ain't gonna be the girl,
who sits and listens to you people,
giving in, no matter how painful it was.
Holding back my tears and accepting
every single damn thing you want me to do.
I've had enough. My patience have been tested.
Don't you people hold your authority high up
and surpress my feelings,
it's not going to work any longer.
I've loved you people and tried to respect you,
but you people are more scheming than i ever imagine.
I don't wanna have parents like this.

If that's the case,
if that's how you wanna carry on.
Forget about communicating,
forget about having the usual peaceful life.
Forget about me giving you respect
and ya know what?
Forget about me loving you people the same
ever again.
Too bruised, too disappointed.
I'm flying away to newer heights.

Enough of all this nonsense.
As i wanted to mention, people out there.
Catholics and christians alike,
DON'T watch Da Vinc Code.
it's not going to get you anywhere.
The movie mocks our religion
and convincing people of such ridiculous happenings,
in the catholic's history.
If you have already watched it,
don't be influenced by it.
All that has been stated was according
to Da Vinci's sayings and portraits of the Last Supper.
Who was he to change the future?
Who was he to make our religion a laughing topic?

I really wanna find out more about this guy.
Somehow i sense he spells trouble.
I find the movie full of crap.
It's definitely gonna create alot of controversies.
Like what the priest in my parish says,
boycotting the movie is an excellent idea.
Curiousity kills the cat.
Many would wanna know what the content of
the movie was.
Believe me,
I know i shouldn't have watched it.
But iform my personal experience,
i'm asking you christians and catholics
out there,
to give this movie a skip.
It's not getting you anywhere.
It's blasphemus.
totally absurd.
I'm kinda aggravated by such remarks
and conclusion.
This is just the beginning,
wait till i find out more
about the mysteries of our religion.

But in the meantime,
people out there who have watched it,
i solemnly tell you
from the bottom of my heart,
that cathlocism is nothing like
what is portrayed,
we have one true God,
We love him,
and ad the bible speaks,
we believe in him.

Our faith is not confusing,
it's the people out there,
who wants to make a difference in the future,
that such controversies occur.

To all my fellow sisters and brothers,
we should keep our faith alive
and stand for what we believe.

We are the catholics of the century. =)

// time always passes so fast,
// when the both of us are together,
// true as it may seem,
// but don't despair my dear,
// we have many more hours together,
// once i'm out of my cage,
// the live that we'd be living,
// will be the greatest moments of our lives,
// and that memory will stay with me,
// till the day i die. =)
// thank you so much for the past two days.
// I just had so much fun and love with you.
// you rock and i love you. <3

* After all these time, i loved you more than ever.