Today's a sunday...
supposedly meant to be enjoyable..
but i din like this sunday of mine very much.
it din impress me.
what today gave me..
was only a feeling that i'm lost...

very early in the mornin,
arn 1 - 3..
one of the worst part of my life had to happen,
there we go again..
it's all about us saying the wrong things..
what was i suppose to do?
i just couldn't stay long..
it's not as if i had a choice.
i wanted so badly to stay wif u thru out the nite baby,
wished i could just hug u to sleep,
to take care of ya..
but what ya said hurt me bad.
i noe..
it has been very very hard on you,
due ot my parents restrictions and the pressure u're facing..
our relationship is a hidden secret from my parents.
i've alwyas thought how u could actually survive this ordeal,
just to be with me.
coz if it was some one else,
they'd leave me fer good.
therefore..
no matter what happens,
i keep telling myself,
if u could deal with it and take it in ur stride,
why can't i just be abit more understanding?
u could just go with someone else,
but u stayed.
that gives me more reason to love you even deeper.
but i hope that..
at least u could put urself into my shoes sometimes.
all i need is a lil bit of understanding.
i could take the risk of staying over,
n letting my parents hunt me down,
they can jolly well kill me if they knew i was with you,
but what if they were not coming fer me but fer you?
do you noe how scared i always get..
i can suffer all those beatings,
but to see you hurt is so much more painful..
than the physical pain,
coz i'll be emitionally damage,
dun say things that u dun want to baby.
express yourself n open up to me.
coz if u dun, i'll never noe how u feel.
you noe...
i love you too much,
i just wish that sometimes you'll be happier with me.
coz i'm thankful and happy with you.
really..from the bottom of my heart.

my heart breaks whenever we quarrel,
over some matters which really seems bad.
just want us to be happy.
would you?
help me on this journey?
coz i'll never give up.

went fer my sis con camp thingy,
had mass.
saw lotsa cyf peeps,
geez..it's been so long,
but ppl still rem me..
-aww..that's sweet-
really miss them loads man..
guess i'll be popping down next fri..
-hehe- anyone happy? :P

really wanted to meet dearie today.
dad din allow me to go out.
-aiyo- expected.
what to do?
i'm left with all the setbacks again.
-faints-

- Madam misses Sir a whole load. -
*going crazy*
some one..please call woodbridge? lols.