i don't know why.
i don't understand.
and i don't see a logic.
why am i feeling this way?
why did i feel that when we hung up the phone just now,
u seem so bothered.
u dun seem to wanna tok to me.
y is that so?
what have i done this time?
i'm trying really hard to understand you.
i'm feeling sad.
i feel like crying.
but the tears just won't fall......
it's welling up in my eyes..
i don't get it.
why do i feel that everytym my best friend calls you and tok to u.
ur tone afta tt will change.
it's as if everything she says is true.
and u believe every word of it.
to me...
u dun seem to believe me..
mayb i'm being too sensitive.
i feel that u're getting tired of me.
i dun understand why there are so many probs coming up.
we used to handle it veri well..
but now..we just can't.
you noe sumthing........
u're the only person hu makes my day.
hu dictates my mood.
u can make me the happiest gal alive,
u can also make me the saddest girl..
i've never blamed you fer anything.
or even try to get angry wif u.
but sumtyms...
u make me feel..
that i'm just secondary.
i dun wish to have that kind of feeling.
i believe u still love me alot..
prove it baby...
i'm beginning to lose it...
at every single point of time,
i make a veri big effort to prove my love fer you.
really...and everyone noes that.
don't distant urself away from me.
fer u'll make me feel that i've done a bad job as a stead.
i love you..
time and time again...
i assured you..
n u noe tt deep inside ur heart..
i really did prove it..
and i won't b shy to say this..
i'm proud to have a stead like you.
i'm proud to be with you.
i'm proud to be your girl.
i've given what i could...
if i could..i'll be giving more..
coz i wun noe..
when i'll be leaving this world.....
i just pray fer more time.......
just as long as my heart beats continously everyday..
i'll love you even more..
and do whatever i can...
coz i don't wanna die with regrets......

i'm vexed.
i love you alot.
do u feel the same too?
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