been a long time since i've last update.
decided to do it now.
mind's just filled with stuffs i dun wanna think abt.
wished i could could dwn for christmas tomolo wif dear.
i mean..itz been such a long time already..
never haf i counted dwn to christmas wif anyone special.
now tt i've got my special sumone i cant even do that.
dad dozen allow me.
gosh..watz wrong..
just this time..itz only counting dwn for christmas.
not robbing a bank.


i just dunno wat to say or do.
feel so distressed n upset now.
i really wanna spend time wif dear.
i really wanan share this special moment wif dear.
y cant i just do tt?
i really wish i could.
dear's been so nice to me.
always so caring n loving.
i love dear alot.
n the least i cld do is spend this time wif dear..
i dun wan any christmas gifts or anything.
i just wan to haf this special moment wif my dear..

can i haf it?
will i get my wish?
is Santa listening to me?
Santa..if u're listening,please grant me my wish..
i really hope to do that..
thank you veri much..

- ja's wishing n hoping for the best -
- crosses finger -

i love u loads dear..
i hope ya noe..
all i want this christmas is you..and only you..
no matter what happens,
i'm gonna be by ur side..
to love you always..
sleep tite baby..missing you 24/7

nitez peeps..ciaoz world..tata universe..
miss ya all...